I'm going to get punished, every single time I won't do my homework!
I don't want to know what will happen if I'll fail (and since I had no idea for a thing) in Arabic.
So much pressure on me!
Now I understand those people!
But why do I have to learn the hard way?
Okay, this renovation is literally killing me!
I'm super tired every fucking day, I'm almost falling asleep in class at 11-12 on, it's like a fucking clock.
I have no time.
I'm having sports everyday and my whole body is sore.
I'm having homework and plenty in specific days thanks to my special school, so my brain is sore as well.
I constantly think about killing myself.
Now I'm under serious watching of my teachers, coach (Irena), and my parents, telling me that I'm not socializing enough (I seriously wonder what's anti-social means? Sarcasm).
I can't do this.
I can't.
Okay, I want to die, every fucking moment, but I'm not dying, so I'm suffering.
I'm learning all the time, about such a boing material! What's so bad about learning in a way that you have fun which is easy!
There is no rest!
I don't think that what in doing right now is called "living", technically, I am breathing, my heart is beating, and my brain is working, physically I'm alive, but mentally? Not at all.
Today is my funeral for mentally living.
For once in that month, may I calm the fuck down?!
Well, this post is tragic.
I have so much to say, but I usually forget if it's too much to write.
So that's it.
Berries, survivors,
I hope you'll make it.
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