Ginger

Dear Christians, why the fuck do you poison your friends with sugar and fats on Christmas?

I made ginger cookies yesterday for my costume (a gingerbread man cookie), and the amount of butter!

And the sugar!

And the corn syrup!

Are you fucking kidding me?

Gladly, I used less butter and sugar, but that's because I just didn't have enough for making them, not that it matters for me, vegan high five. 

Today it's Purim. 

If you remember last year, then good, if not go google it. 

Another Jewish holiday I don't believe in, but I got no choice. 

So I'm dressing up and joining the crowd. 

Last year I was a bra, right tit. 

And the traditional food is buttery crunchy kind of cookies. 

Never liked them. 

But the really yearly thing, is to bring to your friends a basket/box filled with junk food and sweets. 

I made a huge one. 

I think the only thing I can eat from what I made is the juice. 

Gelatin, and butter and milk are the things that this food made of. 

This, and a ridiculous amount of sugar. 

In the card, I wrote "I'm saying sorry now for the sugar poisoning you'll have later, happy Purim from dvash!"

I'm lovely. 

But the hospitals are ridiculously expensive these days. 

That's so weird in my opinion. 

I remember I tried to explain...

OH I REMEMBER!

I wanted to say I forgot it, but now I remember. 

I tried to explain you how to pronounce his name correctly. 

His name is usually writing chah, and that's really weird. 

So, the first part is tzah or tsah (I prefer the ts, as this is how y sister got her name in English, I created it, and not tz, will make me have a mental breakdown thanks to Bratz, and Gal), and then ch/j (on Spanish), like Jose, which At first I read like joe•zi, and then I thought that it's Yossi (stupid I know), it took me five minutes to figure it out, which is a shame. 

Oh well. 

WAIT. 

I have something important to say!

THEY'LL DELIVER IT TO FUCKING NORTH KOREA BEFORE ISRAEL. 

It doesn't relate to what I said before, BUT COME FUCKING ON!

Amazon delivers stuff to Israel, shipping of 300 fucking dollars, but they still deliver. 

People actually wonder why I'd rather live anywhere else but here. 

Although I don't know if it pays for them to ship it to Israel, we make a lot of noise, each small person, but we are just like twenty people that making a riot that seems like made by hundreds. 

The only good thing about it, is that I'll never stop imagine a concert for the good old days on 2060 or something, and every single fan will break his hip.

And I'll be sixty and jump on the crowd and break people. 

Because yes, one of the better ways to die in, die nicely happily. 

...

I read on how to stop emotional eating, which sucks because thanks to my mother, I'm struggling with getting to 46.5 again, it sucks. 

And people suggest to write or scream into a pillow to make it bearable. 

For me, it just makes it worse or doesn't help at all. 

Writing (guess when I'm doing it), doesn't help, at all, it seems so usual, nothing special. 

And screaming into a pillow never helped because it just made me even more angry, sore vocal cords aren't something that makes you happy. 

I want to comit suicide. 

Everybody here, slender, skinny, fit, and if not then sexually attractive (12 year olds are still not sexy), and there's me. 

Fat blob that weighs 47.5-48 thanks to shitty emotional eating. 

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DON'T END.
PLEASE DON'T EVER END.
I REALLY DON'T WANT TO FREAK OUT TODAY.
I hate the person who wrote Aya's Headphones (or earphones?), link is here:
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/Aya's_Headphones
You know why I don't want to do it?
Because my headphones are black and red, and the next song in this playlist-mix of YouTube is In The End.
I'm kind of upset today with the music.
Yesterday I could hear Bring Me The Horizon's Sleepwalking and Can You Feel My Heart, now?
THEY AREN'T AVAILABLE IN MY COUNTRY.
THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.
Wasn't it enough when I wanted to get May Death Never Stop You, and it can get to North Korea (who can't order it, unless they are a relative of Kim, or something like that), fucking Zimbabwe, everywhere but here.
Now it is targetted to harm those twenty riot makers!
NONONONONONO!
DON'T.
SHUT UP.
DON'T

And you do it.
WHY YOUTUBE?! WHY?!

....

I want to cut, three days in a row