But that's probably thanks to that really awful feeling from my relapsing to compulsive over eating disorder, which truly sucks, it's like the fifth grade all over again, I really need to fix myself.
Mom writing here a plan to tell you what I'm going to do.
Morning, no breakfast, continuing with computer stuff (probably sai and folder editing and trying to find a good app or just a demo for a synth), after it, ram, on the break, giving the birthday cake to my friend.
And I won't be able to eat it because that it's with shit ton of eggs, cream, and obviously, a shit ton of calories.
Not very vegan friendly.
Nor health friendly.
For lunch something small (brocolli leftovers with one bread with matbooha -spicy tomato thing- or hummus, or something?), and drinking water.
Doing it until 15:35, because then I'm already out on my bicycle.
Then, around five thirty, I'll be home, a shower, doing my stuff, and deciding if I'm worthy enough to have a dinner.
I compulsively over ate today, soup, bread, chocolate, and packed fruits.
At least I didn't eat the cake.
I can definatley see the "worse" version.
I'm not perfect, but I'm not a whole wreck that is truly disaapointment and the worst thing alive!
I probably are more, but I just forgot (from choice or not), or I just didn't eat other things.
I want you expect from Fridays post to be epic, because it will include MPA metrial, and creepypasta stuff!
And by the way, make a small research about emos, my little pony, poems, and Nathan yonathan (or however you think you should englishify it), espacially a poem he wrote about a girl.
And expect for new revelations that came from excessive thinking, and a self inflicted damaged mind!
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