Oh fuck oh shit oh fuck!
Why am I doing this to myself?!
We are celebrating two years of posting in four days! (time goes fast when you're having fun) and my thirteenth birthday is six days from then (ten days from now), which is a complete shitty hell!
I just understood something that if I could've destroyed, I would've, but now I saw something and suddenly my brain decided to function.
In Hebrew?
I'd watch thirteen for my birthday (that was obvious) but since the accident that just happened, I'll hear the album 13.
Waste of time in order to respect.
Oh well, at least I don't cut thirteen cuts, right?
WAIT!
What if I said to myself to cut thirteen times and I just didn't count it?!
Okay, less freakin out, I ha the whole night to do so.
No I should go to try empty my bowels and get ready for the 2km run today!
So many Russians in one damn place.
Now in 80 percent sure that the man I cycled in to (that was definatley not running in to), is German or Polish!
But more German, it made me wonder, problems in Europe again?
I know the stuff in France, but that's all, I know the in some places around the world there are few antisemistic actions, but come on!
Fuck it I'm now running.
In fact I'm going home.
Thank you very much Yael.
I really hope you didn't do it on purpose.
Anixety is not fun you know!
Fuck it.
I'm walking home.
I'd die before running this.
I know he was in my school, yet the current team is falling apart.
The teacher that taught two generations is leaving this year.
The best principle in the world quit!
A bitchy rude person was brought, after ruining the life on another one with a dream.
If you call this school, than ram is not a school for the (insert fancy-shmancy word here), because it's a heaven!
With the shit I dealt with this morning I'll probably continue my day with feeling that will suit.
For now? Have fun watching me posting from my laptop while playing Emarled (no walkthrough but for the part with the mirage tower, but the rest? By myself!), or playing sims, with creepypasta tributes (or thinspo ones, mostly pop rock and that stuff), and making a child named Albert, and a sim name Kaitlin which is his sister, or I'll continue with my vampiracy!
My sim is a blonde thin scientist!
Thanks to her genius trait, she lives in Bridgeport (I might move them out of town after I'll get to the family oriented ones), I opened her an online dating profile!
I used the sims wiki to heck what's their state, I didn't care what trait they got, Vladimir was there, suprising, ain't it?
Though if if like it that much i can always give someone a surgery, when I'll have enough, but I'd rather do it for the heir.
I need to read three stories, maybe it'll clean my head.
.....
FUCK IT.
I WANT TO CUT!
I'M TIRED OF IT.
FUCKING HELL.
I don't care anymore.
I guess less meals for me, more hatred to get rid of.
Just skipping as much as possible.
I don't want to eat.
Tomorrow I won't eat.
I shall not consume a thing until three P.M. minimum!
....
It's not fair,
Why am I disgusted with myelf now?
What did I do wrong in order to feel this way?
What do I have to do in order to make it stop.
...
Why can't I be just normal?
Without that fucking hipochondracy?!
I hate it.
I can't fucking stand it.
I develop stuff in matter of seconds!
....
I don't want to fall again for that stupid cycle.
I know I will evantually, but I'd rather avoid it.
...
Well, that's explains my weird bloated belly.
I got my period now.
I fear I might be giving nutrition to my body again.
It means I'll gain weight.
Right?
....
I actually wondered when I was supposed to get weirdly hit by something.
Yesterday, I just fell, like, I was walking up the three stairs, and there was a gait.
I tried to fight with it adn check who's going to pass through the other and going to win.
I lost.
I fell.
And actually, today I just walked my way to a post.
I want to cut my hair.
How?
Short.
How am I going to example it correctly?
Guys medium length.
I'm still surprised that the only way to describe exactly what it will look like is this:
Wait, I couldn't find anything.
Length-wise, it's guys medium.
Like, little bit under the chin, but above the shoulders.
But I can't find anything wavy-curly-straight like how mine looks after being stuck in a bun.
This is pretty much the waviness, but it will change.
Like one day it's like that, the other, straight, the one afterwards, curly.
Well, I also want to dye it (almost wrote die it), but until then, I got plenty of time.
I'd also like to donate my hair to those wig makers, for cancer kids.
It's not their complete fault that their body's cells are dysfunctionating, and are acting weirdly, and their brain didn't save the body in time.
I have no idea what unnatrual hair color will go with me.
But I'm definatley going for dark purple/ blue/ greens, because how black can I be?
And I can't dye black to black.
But just for you to know, that if I'll dye, and I'll have to bleach my hair, when the bleached area will be too long (it just doesn't wear off completly, it can fade and look grayish, but not back to the original color), I'd call the post "back to black", just information.
Tomorrow I'm surfing again.
Sweet smell of waves and sand, and not so sweet smell of disgusting people and stupid bathers and swimmers!
Fucking parents with their kids!
They see you surf, they see that surfers are there, yet they'll go with their kids to there and swim, and yell on us when we surf next to them, idiots!
Another example for stupid people.
One time, I came back from the dog training after going with Yael to there, let me tell you something, nothing chagnes in white stupid white six year olds, always bitchy, they never change, they just replace.
I went up, and I waited behind a small girl, I waited for the sidewalk to get wide enough for me to pass her without hurting her or me.
I went through smoothly, looking at the girl to make sure she's okay.
She got slightly scared and confused ("What? The world isn't revolving around me? And my rich white parents? Daddy!!") and she lost control and bumped into the fence.
I stopped immediatly and asked her "Are you okay? Do you want some help", she said nicely like every girl "no", which is true, she's a bitch, for lying, but you'd understand it's education only.
I continued, her father turned around (I don't remember if I mentioned -we were all on bicycles), and asked "Sweety is everything okay?", and that bitch said "No! She pushed me!" or something alike, but I remmeber she lied, oh, the pain that against you only because you are simply not white and rich and fitting for that shitty city like them.
Then this father, barked at me that I should be ashamed for doing so, and he called me stupid.
Fucking Israel.
What the people that were originally from here did to us, will do to the people who are just as old in here as you! Only bcause of their skin tone!
People like him makes me want to kill.
I felt angry afterwards.
I'd still like to stab him.
Like Gavin, from The Face, or snap his neck, like Tommy Twitch (I love the fact that it's a tomboy slightly emo girl who got twitches, I have multiple accounts under the username of DrTommy001), or that guy from The Nightmare, fuck it!
I'm Marco!
Or Polo!
I'll fucking tear you apart dear, just as your son, the Lurker boy...
And maybe I'll just free you.
Your face is insult to humanity, now apologize.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2e_Q8NzjTSI
Just look at those comments.
And it's not the first video where it happens!
It's fucking rude.
Who are you to speak for others?
.....
FUCK IT.
I WANT TO CUT!
I'M TIRED OF IT.
FUCKING HELL.
I don't care anymore.
I guess less meals for me, more hatred to get rid of.
Just skipping as much as possible.
I don't want to eat.
Tomorrow I won't eat.
I shall not consume a thing until three P.M. minimum!
....
It's not fair,
Why am I disgusted with myelf now?
What did I do wrong in order to feel this way?
What do I have to do in order to make it stop.
...
Why can't I be just normal?
Without that fucking hipochondracy?!
I hate it.
I can't fucking stand it.
I develop stuff in matter of seconds!
....
I don't want to fall again for that stupid cycle.
I know I will evantually, but I'd rather avoid it.
...
Well, that's explains my weird bloated belly.
I got my period now.
I fear I might be giving nutrition to my body again.
It means I'll gain weight.
Right?
....
I actually wondered when I was supposed to get weirdly hit by something.
Yesterday, I just fell, like, I was walking up the three stairs, and there was a gait.
I tried to fight with it adn check who's going to pass through the other and going to win.
I lost.
I fell.
And actually, today I just walked my way to a post.
I want to cut my hair.
How?
Short.
How am I going to example it correctly?
Guys medium length.
I'm still surprised that the only way to describe exactly what it will look like is this:
Wait, I couldn't find anything.
Length-wise, it's guys medium.
Like, little bit under the chin, but above the shoulders.
But I can't find anything wavy-curly-straight like how mine looks after being stuck in a bun.
This is pretty much the waviness, but it will change.
Like one day it's like that, the other, straight, the one afterwards, curly.
Well, I also want to dye it (almost wrote die it), but until then, I got plenty of time.
I'd also like to donate my hair to those wig makers, for cancer kids.
It's not their complete fault that their body's cells are dysfunctionating, and are acting weirdly, and their brain didn't save the body in time.
I have no idea what unnatrual hair color will go with me.
But I'm definatley going for dark purple/ blue/ greens, because how black can I be?
And I can't dye black to black.
But just for you to know, that if I'll dye, and I'll have to bleach my hair, when the bleached area will be too long (it just doesn't wear off completly, it can fade and look grayish, but not back to the original color), I'd call the post "back to black", just information.
Tomorrow I'm surfing again.
Sweet smell of waves and sand, and not so sweet smell of disgusting people and stupid bathers and swimmers!
Fucking parents with their kids!
They see you surf, they see that surfers are there, yet they'll go with their kids to there and swim, and yell on us when we surf next to them, idiots!
Another example for stupid people.
One time, I came back from the dog training after going with Yael to there, let me tell you something, nothing chagnes in white stupid white six year olds, always bitchy, they never change, they just replace.
I went up, and I waited behind a small girl, I waited for the sidewalk to get wide enough for me to pass her without hurting her or me.
I went through smoothly, looking at the girl to make sure she's okay.
She got slightly scared and confused ("What? The world isn't revolving around me? And my rich white parents? Daddy!!") and she lost control and bumped into the fence.
I stopped immediatly and asked her "Are you okay? Do you want some help", she said nicely like every girl "no", which is true, she's a bitch, for lying, but you'd understand it's education only.
I continued, her father turned around (I don't remember if I mentioned -we were all on bicycles), and asked "Sweety is everything okay?", and that bitch said "No! She pushed me!" or something alike, but I remmeber she lied, oh, the pain that against you only because you are simply not white and rich and fitting for that shitty city like them.
Then this father, barked at me that I should be ashamed for doing so, and he called me stupid.
Fucking Israel.
What the people that were originally from here did to us, will do to the people who are just as old in here as you! Only bcause of their skin tone!
People like him makes me want to kill.
I felt angry afterwards.
I'd still like to stab him.
Like Gavin, from The Face, or snap his neck, like Tommy Twitch (I love the fact that it's a tomboy slightly emo girl who got twitches, I have multiple accounts under the username of DrTommy001), or that guy from The Nightmare, fuck it!
I'm Marco!
Or Polo!
I'll fucking tear you apart dear, just as your son, the Lurker boy...
And maybe I'll just free you.
Your face is insult to humanity, now apologize.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2e_Q8NzjTSI
Just look at those comments.
And it's not the first video where it happens!
It's fucking rude.
Who are you to speak for others?
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