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I can tell you that if I had balls, I'd were dead or at least in hospital right now.
Emptiness is the only thing I can feel because all the rest is full body with numbness.
I've made mistakes. Truth.
But I won't stop until it became worse.
Here's a song that somehow is.... Perfect.

This song is from a video in YouTube.
About bulling.
I also saw the movie "Cyberbulling".
I can tell my life would be better if I could know.
Because all I feel that I'm doing worse then poop.
I'm ruining a life.
MY LIFE.

Today were mistake to go to Gal's home to Yali's book.
I felt like a tail.
Like a tail.
I don't really believe that they're my friends, they're Taylos.
And at least now I know I'm a fox tail.

If I'll ever had option to change ages and live forever I'll kill myself and leave for another place so I could live as someone else that make Itay love him.

I'll do everything for him.
If he just knew how much I love him.
If he knew and figure I'm nice and if he would love me.

Just one slow dance.
Somewhere alone.
Me and He in my room with song like Let Me Sign (Robert Pattinson) or Everytime (Britney Spears)  or Autumn Leaves (Ed Sheeran).
Dancing.
Close to each other.
My arms on his shoulders and he on my back.

I asked for love.
I pray that he'll give me love like he give to others.
I hate love.
And love hates me.

I wonder if my dad reads minds.
He asked me if everything okay while I thought about suicide.

Maybe We'll dance for the song I will be right here waiting for you.

I wish he would love me.
Just the way I am.
Unpopular.
Strange.
Stupid.
Smart.
Weak.
Hiding.

Just the way I am.
A wimpy girl who over thinking.

So yeah I'm acting to him like we're just friends.
I want him and I want him stop teasing me.
I want him right now!
Just give me love and no one get hurts.

But me.
I always get hurt.