Disgusting Disguise

Try to say it fast.

The trip sucked.
Simply from just a few reasons that makes sense.

1. Jealousy
2. Freezing
3. Sadness
4. Lack of music, sleep, entertainment, friends.

It's the things that ruins... everything.

Well I was (and am) jealous about my friend and a guy.
Just so cuddly buddly.
Disgusting.
Awfuly disgusting.
But it still made me be sad the I'm alone, even when I'm with everyone, I feel alone.

Freezing, we walked with a pair of jeans (some with shorts) and short shirt and some (like me) a hoodie.
We walked in the and on the beach.
We walked in the rain and breeze.
And stopped to many times for looking at snails.

Sadness, ain't to hard to explain.
So just what I felt in a short list.
Fat,
Alone,
Stupid,
Traitor.
I hate to be far from Gal.
It makes her crawl to Yali and become a tayl, but when I'm around, she is a best friend, because she don't know what to do so she escaping, and I don't know either what to do so I carry on with her.
And I was so scared from this place so I felt stupid.
And alone because I'm a moody and because I'm a ducking (trying to stop with *ucking else) human.
And fat because I ate too much.

And to not feel alone I tried to socialize (leaving my iPhone) and I didn't heard music or feel joy most of time.

A story from the storyteller.
There's the makeover girl I've told you about (or not) and she didn't came because she "can't stay without her friends for two days" and I can, barely, so if I can and risk to lose my friend again, she can leave her barely friends.

I'm such an awful person.
Judging too many.
Too much.
But, why am I letting it happen? I know the results very well, am I?
I've gotta shut my mouth.
Fast.
And don't decide on others.
I know how annoying to talk to someone who give only commands and shows the negative of all.

The fire was pretty.
I like red, and the orange, and the green and the blue of flames.
I wish I was like the fire.
Eternal, staying until she don't have a reason to go further.
But, sometime you need her...
I don't really want to be a fire anymore.

I'd like an ice-cream.
And I'd like a hug.

Well I guess I'll leave you for the few next hours (so I could talk) and yeah!
The video!
well, a soon as possible.
(Probably at Wednesday because on Tuesday I'll be tired from the another two days trip.)

Bye guys.
Loner is off!