Apologize

Why people feel sorry for the weak ones?
Okay, I get that the weak ones have the easiest way to connect to their emotions.
The weak ones are making "mistakes" in purpose and not caring -and knowing- the consequences.
And who pay for it?
Innocence people that turn into two options, one stronger, two dead.
I became stronger.
I'm not really alive though, but my blood still running in my body, so I'm not physically dead.

Today I were miserable.
It started nicely, turned to hell-alike.
At the morning I did the quiz, doesn't matter.
Then, the devil came.

My teacher, her, the principal and I, talked.
They don't, and will never, get how much it is for me.
They all reject and not promoting the apology that Yali will have to say.
The fuck?!
Seriously, this bitch haven't passed a month yet and she wants to go, because she have the option to leave.
Excuse me bitch?!

I don't care what's wrong with her, if she won't apologize, I'll go to the police.
She is doomed.
Or this, to apologize, and suffer a little, for barely a hour, or to never be able to get an American Visa.
I am a bitch.
I am mean.
I am cruel.
But, don't be worried, I know that what I'm doing coming from a temporarily insanity, and in no time I'm back to be the old and same unhappy girl.
For now, I can kill a dove with bare hands.

I dreamt last night about something.
That I cut myself 3 times, in even lines, perfectly in order.
And then, it became hell.
Well, this dream is freaking me out, I thought about it all day.

My tears aren't here, they need time to get into eyes after I lost them all.
It's crazy, she's so stupid and she's don't care because people are here for the weak dumb ones, and they take care for her, I'm all alone with some of my friends and my family.

I have only 3 friends in my class, who are girls.
They get me, and two of them are my best friends.
And those two aren't here.

There's a girl, who doesn't get me and I'm trying to be nice, but I'm too late, she became Yali's pet.
Seriously.
I feel like I am the wrong one.
But that's not true.

They don't want that Yali will apologize because then she'll be humiliated.
Like I don't know what's shame means, how much being humiliated stings.

I feel like I'm stupid.
I don't really know what stops me from drinking poison.
Or any way to kill myself.


I have nothing more to say.
I'm driving insane.
I'm going to hear music, a little to continue with my pretty amazing draw of black veil brides, I want to do My Chemical Romance riding on piggies, or just do them natrually, and the others, I'll think about it.


Berries, survivors,
I hope you'll make it.