Charles

Okay, I have to admit, today was a surprise.
Nobody from my class remembered the fake facebook account.
It's probably because that it effected me more.
Well, I was the joke Yali was the anonymous comedian, and anyone was the little jokers.
So, I can say, that the story is gone for most, in me, it's bursting like fire.
I wonder what will happen, if it will be the same.
If the whole city will mock her, if everyone will know, if I'll watch aside and say nothing, like she did.
I wonder what will happen, heaven for me, and hell to her Or, will it be the opposite?
Heaven for the crying whiny girl, that literally, destroyed another girl life.
And hell, hell for the girl who suffered everything, stayed -barely- alive, and not crying, staying strong, showing that she is tough, tough to win.
And I hope not, or maybe I do.
It's or being a wimp, doing what I have felt, but she'll get it shorter, and much less.
And or being stronger, suffering all over again for being insensitive to the girl who ruined her life.

Well, I hate her right now.
If she thought she's a friend, she shall think again.
She was my best friend.
She kept pretending that she is, and I treated her amazing.
She liked one guy, I matched them together, and it was exactly when I was broken from the heart break from Itay.
And, after a year, this year she liked another guy, from other school, so I've connected them together, I was nice and helped her.
And what she done? BETRAYED ME.
Like seriously, I'll tell you all the nice things I've done to her, before she made the account:

• Matched her with her crush
• Helped her in all the possible things
• Made her stronger.

And a few bad things:

• said it's impossible to teach her math
• Separated her temporarily from her bff. 

And she isn't upset because the bff thing.

But how bitch can you be for someone who done everything to you?

I guess that for some, a lot...

I wonder if it happened to other people, like, it probably happened that someone made up a fake facebook account, truth, but that someone blamed it on them, and the someone was someone a good friend.

And on the elementary school.

I've got to admit, she's pretty smart at being cruel.

I bet that it would be interesting if people won't treat each one of us differently.

 Because, I'm not so popular, but I am an amazing friend.

And I care, it's not that I don't care from others.

After feeling hell and heaven, your empathy and sympathy are higher then before.

And the more it's fresh, it's stronger.

So it have good side, if it's under control, you are helpful and everything.

But if not... Oh no...

I'm not really stable, so I cry from books, and it's sucks because I couldn't believe, seriously? this is how you finish book? *really dangerous spoiler alert for dark flame* to kill one of the main and the solution with him?!

Ok, so not only books, you know what you'd feel as others, as your complex 100 personalities.

To laugh, to cry, to lie, to smile, to hide, to guide.

Well when I discovered it's Yali, I can't say I wasn't on the edge of laughing.

Seriously.

My attempt for hiding feeling ended well, but I just stared in the space, acting surprised.

But hey, instead of this Friday that everyone will know and she'll own the first live "walk of shame" I ever saw, it's on Sunday.

It's like that in schools that teach only 5 days, that Monday is hell, so in ours it's 6 days and just look that Monday is Sunday.

Sunday became hell, guess to who.

It's not me, and probably not you.

My mom too logic, it's hard to tell something stupid without getting a lecture.

Me and my smart evolved friends, get very easily distracted, from the bubbles screen thing on windows 7, we all get hypnotized from.

But it's how to be with 21 year old brain and a heart of 16 in a mask of 12 year old, drowning in a class of kids, losing my mind, learning from the teacher I won't see next year, and she know everything, and she cares, keeping myself with friends, and fake ones to discover.

For now, my true best friend that I want the forever, it's Maya ds and Maya g, and if you didn't knew, if my mom didn't wanted special name (Dvash meaning is honey) I supposed to born with the name "Maya".

Lucky me with special names, it's like calling a girl in a common name, Maya it's common.

There are only few girls named Dvash in Israel, and there's one girl named Like, and her sister that's 5 named Dvash, and they think they invented that themselves.

So, I guess I'm more special then a goat with two heads.

I hate all those questions I'm attacked with, prisoners investigations are less cruel.

So yesterday, after I finished Dark Flame, I opened the book I've got in Barnes And Noble, of poems.

I copied few from the heartache chapter and put them on my Springpad.

So if you want, search for account named Dvash there ad check for the poems notebook.

Do you know the...

I now hearing song named Hurricane and  in Draw Something 2 there's now my draw of hurricane!

So let's get back for the feeling you feel when you forgot how much you loved this song and forgot the singers voice, and now you hear it and you charmed all over again?

Well when I was 7, I heard a song the came from the playlist I've got in my Mp3, and the song was on English and there was a line that she said "let me get you inside" and I thought she singed Pikachu.

So after about this year, I've found this song and I had this feeling.

The song is PRETTY BOY by M2M.

I'm sorry I'm making it so long, I hope you enjoy.

I love the song "Spectrum", I always was confused with the name.

I thought the title is "Say my name" but it's spectrum.

"Say my name, and every color illuminates, we are shining, and we'll be never afraid again"

I like this song, and the voice - the amazing voice.

I can't say something anymore to you.

So goodbye, me and Charles says goodbye, because Charles doesn't exist.

Let's go Charles, we deserve a raspberry popsicle!

Berries, survivors.

I hope you'll make it.