Fat & Diet

I'm sorry for lying.
I swear I didn't knew what will happen.

But I'm not the devil.
I'm not evil.
I'm just a scared little girl.

She's not afraid from me.
Nobody treats her differently.
She's stronger then I thought.

I didn't fooled others.
I've fooled myself.
I made myself believe I am the best, the strongest, the smartest.
But then there's one thing I didn't excepted to.
Key wasn't in school.
Gal went to but thing for her Bat-Mitzvah.
Maya ds were somewhere else.
.I left alone with  Maya g.
And the problem is that she was around Yali.
Maya told me today that she trying to diet.
She thinks she's fat.
She told me she wants to starve herself a little.
I was shocked.
She aren't fat, she is very skinny, she has an amazing body.
And I told her that's on the edge of anorexia.

I don't believe to Yali's lies,
But my best friend does.


I don't get any young people trying to diet.
Especially the skinny ones, like that's that you have a little thick thighs (like me) or a huge but (that I'm proud of) or not a flat stomach (that sometimes give me problems at some clothing stores, but most of time it's beautiful), as long as your not grizzly bear you are fine!

As long as you know you are skinny or not that fat you are fine.
Like, when you say that you are fat and have so many flaws (MEAN GIRLS) but you are pretty, I mean extraordinary piece of hotness.
So dear girls (it's girls only), stop stealing words!

I say that all the pretty, slim, sexy girls who say they ugly (or just simply say, hoes) they just want compliments they need for their extra low self esteem.
But all the girls who aren't that perfect, who have under the normal and above the "perfect" shape, the gorgeous who doesn't need compliments, and the ones who really considered sexy because of their body and not the clothing way THEY ONLY THANKING FOR THE COMPLEMENTS.

I mean that if somebody says something nice to you say Thank you.
And if they say something not very nice thing to you say Thank you in a very sarcastic voice.
It's that simple.

I hate all those hoes (yes, yes I did.) who says nerdy when they dress half naked.
Seriously.
Most of them are really ugly.
Or just really stupid.
But honestly,
They're both.


So today was different ending.
Instead of the continue of the crappy start and middle, others speak of it.
A' is a one guy (not very smart, funny, medium+ popularity), so he told me that in the whatsapp group that includes the teen royalty (Plastics, but worse, they have their own jerkish  personality for each one) they been talking about her.
He and -of course- I didn't knew what the talked about.
I wish I could know.

Or maybe I'll see what I don't want to see.
They'll might have rude comments for me.
But probably not.


Today after surfing Maya g told me a very fascinating information about a girl.
Another girl want to do helix like mine.
Guess who?
The cause for torture in teenaging girls, the one and only, Yali.
Yes, bitched want to look like me.

What can I say?
I'm someone to give an example for life.
I mixed social with sports with school and with confidence.
It's rare.
I don't mean the mixture, the confidence.
People have lack of confidence because of the corset queen.
I'm not flat stomach and stick hips, not even close.
But I do look at my tops.
Boobs that is a very good starter.
Ass, seriously large African ass, Brazilian ass.
Muscles, I have well defined leg muscles.
Skinny noodle arms with power of a killer.
Curly living fizzy hair, jumping with every move.
I love my face, small nose, wide thick pink-red lips, long lashed brown eyes, without any child fat (when you were babies and had those chubby face, that's child fat).

I find myself beautiful.
But not perfect.
Perfect exist only in dumb girls facebook comments.


Cynical girl, out.


Berries, survivors,
I hope you'll make it.