Ah

Ummm... guys?
I think I'm broken.
Well why do I?
It started last night, after I finished Nurse Jackie, I went to MTV, beause nothing else was on.
And the show was Jersey Shore.
I watched about 3 episodes at 1 am hearing talking meatballs in Italy that deep their kookas in the hot tub.
Well, that is one thing.
But meanwhile I was on incognito on my iPhone. and believe it or not (if somebody would tell me it, I won't believe him), I was on a girly girl sight.
I was on some site named gurl, and actually read half from the arcticles written by twats to morons who will become another generaation of reality shows people, just like Keke (I also watch The Soup too much).

But like, something is fuckking wrong.
I'm going insane.
Why?
And I can't hear more than half from the songs in my libary.
Many songs are love songs (either shown and hidden).
So I'm getting sick of it, because, well I don't know, maybe I came allergic to normal human activities as love or girliness.


Please, where's my guy stuff.
I should play a video game, if not, I'd be in a hospital and the Doctor would probably shout to the nurse and others "she needs COD injection, 30 milliters!" and the other Doctor or something "What happened?!" and the he'll answer "OVERDOSED WITH GIRLINESS!".
It make sense to me.

Well, so what pokemon game?
Ruby, Saphire, Crystal, Fire Red, Leaf Green, Red, Blue or maybe Yellow?
So many choices *facepalm*.

You know, something I've noticed, many vocalist who are men sounds like girls, including my whole libary and Justin Bieber, and many more people.
Like, am I the only human that have a normal voice?!
Well, I don't have normal voice, some weird guy-girl one with weird changing (I can swear that my voice changing as the guys, it's so weird, and I won't even start from the awkward snore-laugh I have) voice.


I hate Luna-Parks,unless it's with people I like, and I don't really like my family.
Why the fuck would I do it?
I know it sucks to be 12 with your family in the Luna-Park.
But there is worse, like being 15 and do it, the older you are the worse it goes.


Well fuck me, and fuck my life too.

Well, do you know those I'm-going-to-middle-school-and-I-am-afraid-that-I-won't-have-friends-lol questions?
Well I sure do.
So, I have the same problem... kind of.
It's just that all the girls that I know that will go to the sport classes, are basically twats, morons, bitches, and booty-call opportunity for the guys.
And I say it, from the thing that Maya g told me a little bit after the field trip (the make out scene, in the room)

Well sweethearts, fuck them, because I will try to fin a solution, I will not leave the classroom. 

Shit happens, and shit will happen, so lets fucking skip on it, and if you stepped, try to smear it off on some rock. 

So whatever it'll go, at least I won't be the slutty chick in our class, which means the lower rates for pregnancy, and no crap of too-dumb teens. 

The only thing that I'm afraid of, is my addiction. 

I'm easily addicted. 

I know it. 

Since I was little. 

Addicted to juice. 

Addicted to sex (I won't ever talk about it!)

And addicted to harm. 

And the weird addiction to depressing. 

So I might find myself smoking in a pipe. 

Well a building (construction) pipe that hangs in some way in open field. 

And I hope it won't be ciggarets, I want something that worth the money. 

As I mentioned that I have the small thingy that can store small amounts of powder, and of liquids. 

 Just saying. 

With a slight hint. 

Well, I have something to say. 

Back there at the harm times, I hanged out with bbbff and Ms. Slut we bought some of the sweet-sour powder that sold in some sticks, it went good until I asked the question if they want to snort it. 

We did. 

Because I taught them to. 

And I also drank vodka that night. 

It was mixed with mango juice. 

And I drank it all (and I knew after few sips that alcohol was mixed). 

Then I had some kid reaction to alcohol. 

Hyper, then tired and then back to hyper. 

And in the morning I had some slight headache. 

But that was when I was eleven. 

You can see that I'm not very expecting my older me. 

But at least I know one plant that is legal and have some drug-like effects. 

Just need to get a plant, and bam. 

The leaves when you chew them relax you. 

Now I need to learn the other options of getting the thing into your body. 

Well, I'll start the business later. 

I'm just kidding. 

When ill be able to get one. 

I know a place where I have relatives that in the place there's a lot of drug stories and drugs news come from there. 

I might be able to sneak away (or just say pretty please) something. 

Guys, I think that the movie thirteen effected me too much. 

I just need a person to go with. 

For this shit I'd probably use the girls who betrayed me, they fit. 

I guess that I'll have some psycho friend -as psycho as me- and we'll fucking do whatever we want. 

It's almost 2 am, my vagina speaks for me. 

Well tomorrow, ah, tomorrow will be something. 

I still hate somebody. 

And I'm about to change the background and stuff. 

Just for you to know. 

Berries, survivors,

I hope you'll make it.