Better & Worse

Well, I wanted to sleep until almost eight or so, but I couldn't.
Bowel movement.
I guess it's better than not having any of it.
Well, it's almost eight.
Some part of me wants to go, because he's my friend, and I don't want to stay home and be forced to eat.
But another doesn't want me to go, it wants me to stay, do nothing, because even there I'll might be forced to eat, after all it's a synogauge, and there's catering, of really delicous food.
I can always reject, I never had a problem doing so, but I'm afraid that I'll be tempted.
You've seen that my attempts to kill bed (It's not fair that they left it out from those nicknames list, we should add it!), and it's a fucking zombie.
But I'm trying to leave it, caged, no possibilty to catch me.
While recovering from eating disorder, I'm doing my best to another one.
I'm easily addicted, cutting addictions off is not an option, replacing is better.
It takes months and no temptions to reach addiction killer, sadly, I don't have the temptless option.

It's eight already.
I don't think I'll go there.
Hmph...
But I don't want to eat.
Well, I'll avoid it as much as possible.
I'll skip what I can.
I can do my lunner!
It's a mixture between lunch and dinner!

I do them a lot.
It's when I skip lunch, at lunch time, and then eats a little before dinner.
I have yoghurt.
Frozen yoghurt.
It's 104 calorie each.

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Binged again.
What the fuck self?!
Well, at least now I know, that in every single situation I should be in my room.
Not a punishment dear, it's for your safety, more like a prize.

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Am I the only one who want to laugh each time I hear a song that's talking about female, sang by a female, but in her cover version, the song's subject gender changes?
Like, why does it matter?
It's a song, not your fucking sexual prefrence!
"Tattooed skin, you don't smile", this is what I think that will be in the future, when the oh-so reblious teenagers (I assume the same kids who got drunk few months ago, the thirteener girl and the seventeenth guy, and all the inbetween) will have a job, beacuse trust me, nobody wants to be a janitor.
And it's not that I'm saying each teen that passed out and got alcohol poisoning will have his whole life ruined, but if you go down in that track, you'd probably be in deept shit.

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Am I the only one who notices that each person who sings slightly embaressed or told to not move will just move weirdly in his place.
It's weird.
It's the funniest when he got nothing to do.
Then he just nods or something.

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You dissapointed me.
You let me down!
Youtube.
I thought it was the clip I watched a year ago, but no, why would it be? why should I be happy today anyway?...

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If already entering the musical side of yotube, let's go all way (like it wasn't enough with that cover gentleman).
Synthesizers.
Since Daniella and I are making our scene (for the children's animation movie thing) electronic music theme, we are putting something that will match a ghost party in a graveyard/cemetery (depends on what lesson, because as it appears, the science/honor class in pretty much everywhere aren't as smart as I expected them to be, or nerdy), so I'd like to understand what style I'd like, and when it comes to synthesizers, wow, so many different options.

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I feel so weird when my touchscreen doesn't work!

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This song, that dissapointed me, because it wasn't what I thought I was, well it's a song of a band named Her Bright Skies.
I just finished two songs, and both of them I found a weird pose, that the vocalist really likes to sing in:

They just moved all together.
It's like The Wave.
It's funny.
And funnier than last week.
Why?
Because calling to a person Nazi or using their symbols is illegal in Israel now.

It's kind of stupid.
But if thinking of it, so does the sports fans that are screaming it against the other team.
Which is stupid.
Why?
Because calling a Muslim/Arab (There's different, my great-grandmother is an Arab, but she's not Muslim), an antisemic, or Nazi, is just like, no!

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I KNOW WHY THIS HAIR IS FAMILIAR!
This is how dye looks like!
Like on Jennifer's Body, with Colin, when his hair is slightly wet.

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Am I the only one who finds it hilarious, beacuse everything on the video reminds me something from TV.
I'm watching King for a Day, and when the boss spanks that lady's ass, it reminds me of Eretz Nehederet, with the song that they have made, with what the some-sort-of-a-job in the army do, at one thirty, sexually harrasing a private.
Oh, and Victor.
It brings me nightmares.
Forced-smiles, hawk eyes from the managers, dozens of cameras.
Only to film few schools dancing together.
THE NIGHTMARES!
But it helps me to beat my sister on Just Dance 4.
I'm used to dance to those beats.
And to get hurt while doing so.

Really, you're robbing a bank and you find that it's the time to say sorry to god?
Don't you think it's a little too late?
Or early?
Why won't you just take a prayer while taking down the bank?
Why everybody there can lift the gun like it's nothing?!
Am I the only one who can't be strong enough to hold a gun?
It's so fucking heavy.
If I'll ever try to kill myself with shooting a bullet, I wont be able to do that, because when I'll lift the gun, I'd be so happy that I'm strong enough, so I won't be sad enough to die.
Everybody can lift guns but me.
Not fair!
I can shoot them if somebody helps me with picking it up, I did it when I was nine.
My first time learning to murder.

And why black?!
Each time that there is a robbery, there's a rebbery, they wear black hoodie and black pants, and only rarely jeans!
Why can't you wear something amusing?!
For a very good example, things that scare people, like scareclowns (I wrote that in accident, but it sounds fitting), or for example, grown up tan man with blond streak in his semi-curly hair?
Or a man with a green-brown berret and a brown jacket?
They scare the shit out of me!

Why people can't hold their bladder when they're scared?


Water guns!!
I squeaked again, I'm squeaking all the time when I find something amusing, or that I love, Zuko wrong side scar joke, William first appeareance, toy guns robbery.
It happened once.
That's why now they sale the guns with the orange plastic in the end, so you can tell what's realy and what's not.

Why do you sit on his shoulders.
It annoys me.
It reminds me late-night celebrations, that mostly include bar-mitzvahs and weddings.
I hate both.

And the over-using in hand gestures.
It reminds me the depressing events of April.
Like the Holocaust.
I hate it.
Each time, there's a solo, the repeating songs, ugh.
It's awful.

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"The End Of Prom Night".
I know how it ends.
For my knowledge of almost every American prom based movie, the most popular couple will fuck.
Simple as that.
But I'm going to watch Carrie.
So the popular couple will probably be fucked.

I can't stand looking at another bandana.
It's an awfulk memory, of dancing, foods, losing, sweating, suffering.
AKA, school's "fun" day.

You call that a knife?
I would prefer using a sushi knife.
Or if possible what my friend managed to cut her hand with, from the world's sharpest knives.
Oh, that's better.

I like that:

Girl: "I'm getting married!"
Guy: "Oh fuck"

I find it appopriate.

This knife really annoys me.
It reminds me the knife we used to have, the red one, that we used to put our favorite jelly/cheese with because it was soft.


Really.
Now you're handeling her the cute knife?
Great.
When the police will be there they will assume it was her.
She might have nice time being in prison!

The name on his shirt is Jeremy.
IS THAT POSSIBLE?!
No.
Why would you use nicnames?
Allan is not the scareiest I know.

THEY ARE FINNISH!
I remember when my dad went to China and met with some Finnish people, he investigated something for their company.
I want to go now to finland.

I'm going to check up the first-link cycle that will form.
Now I'm in Horror rock.


BOO.

PUNS.


Oh that's just adorable.
You murdered a couple for a flower to give to Allan.
Adorable.
You might as well enjoy a massacre in a hair salon in the next time you'll need hair straightners/dyye/extansions (whatever people are using).

NOW THEY ARE DANCING?!

Because nothing is more romatic than danicing on your enemies blood.

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It's not fair.
WHY PARTLY NAKED MEN CAN BE WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO HEAR ME SCREAMING "DRESS UP".
I'm innappopriate and rude (this is why I love my sims with high free-will and those traits), but it's like showing to a person on his first day in rehab all the matching addiction supplies.

Since I've already watched earlier In The End, I went down to the comments.
I love all those fan vs. hater fights!
And there's a girl/guy (didn't notice), who wrote on the 4 part, that we should stop hating people we wish to be but afraid to admit it.
Because nothing is more great than a stock of fans and paparazzi invading your privacy.

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And people actually wonder why I hate lovesongs?
WELL.
BECAUSE IN ALMOST EVERY SITUATION IT'S OR CHEATING/IMPOSSIBILTY.
And it's not how it's working in real lfie.
In real life it's revolving around pain, shame, guilt, embarssment, and thinking the other one is hiding something.


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STUPID RESTART.
NOW ALL OF MY PAINTINGS ARE GONE.
MY SKETCH BRUSHES ARE GONE.
AND MY COLORS.

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I think I need the white room's white suit (from the mentally ill hospital).
It will make me stop "touching" -actually scratching off- my face while I'm sleeping.


By the way sleeping.
Do It Now Remember It Later is on.
Cheering 11 year olds to drive.
Pfft.
That's nothing!
Our homies (Israel), let mentally ill parents get pregnant and might let the baby live and be the son/daughter of a mother who killed two of her children.
We let a father to teach his 8 year old to drive.
We let dozens of teens to murder others/drink until they hospitalized or die/rape.

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FINALLY.
HERE I FOUND YOU.
Do you remember the song that disappointed me?
I found the answer!

Yet, I don't think I'll ever find the music video I was klooking for since the second grade.
I have a feeling that it's heavy metal.
But I won't bet on it.

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Am I the only one who wonders why people even bother to care?
Like, when school begins, you walk into class, and in some form, you communicate.
And it starts there.
Why?

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Okay, I have a brilliant idea.
Randy on Cena in a mosh pit.
It won't end with death.
But I'll find it amusing.
After all they are not fight machines, they are very nice.

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Another Black Veil Brides video!
COMMENTS TIME!

when im 16 I am gonna see u in warp tour
You can go now..
im 10 years old!
Same! (except 11)

Not fair.

But I find it quite amusing.

Who said that they will be still performing after six years?!

As far as I know, they all died like princess diana.

OH THAT TEN YEAR OLD.

SO TEN YEAR OLDY OF HIM.

What does make little kids all over the world to say u instead of you? (something that just pisses me off, because it's not that hard to write the words right!).

The last year's slang trend of American Movie highschool-college films.

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I KNOW WHO HAVE TATOOS BLACK T-SHIRTS BLANK NAILS BLACK DYED HAIR!

DRAKE STONE.

THAT FANCY CELEB MAGICIAN FROM THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE.

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My friend, Tamar, is having a birthday soon, so around 25 children are in a whatsapp group to make her birthday a real thing.

I'm trying to udnerstand who is who in my contacts and the new numbers.

It made them laugh when I asked if  Mikey is a boy or a girl.

I wouldn't ask it, but since there's one petite blonde girl Mikey in some school in the area, I'd rather go shame and safe than embaressed and un-aware afterwards.

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I thought they were cheering CRYSTAL METH.

They were saying Pierce The Veil.

Oops.

But it's better this way.

Well, bed time as usual, today went better and worse than expected. 

Tomorrow is my tweaked diet. 

I wish that I'll succeed.