I like it!

I feel like shit.

I barely slept well, or nightmares, or waking up and hallucating things and stressing about stuff. 

I thought that I saw Nitay's (a boy from ram) slender man. 

He knows CP too, I got to know that after he put cleverbot and I ran to the computer asking them if I can and when they asked me why I wrote "who drowned?" And I explained and he knew what I talked about. 

Nevermind that. 

I also feel like shit because I'm wearing a black hoodie. 

I'm going to buy new hoodies today. 

It may sound pathetic, because it's fucking summer, but this is who I am. 

I'm going to try to find lighter ones. 

Light-weight.

They are out of hoodies.
Well, all they have is pastel colors, and I hate all of them,
I need my friend back.
My friend, the one that was with me almost all the time, he was with me when I broke a record, he was with me when I went through this year's anorexia phase (it comes on and off, and I'm more ednos thanks to my habits, and I'm not diagnosed, so all of this is complete bullshit), it went with me to everywhere I was.
Why do I always lose them?
He took me away from the real world, he hid me when I needed it the most, he was so much to me.
I love him.
And you have no idea how much I need him back.

I wonder if other people develop relationship with their wardrobe.

I think that some shopaholics do, because (imagine me faking a girly-hoe voice) that shirt totally begged me to buy it! and I know that not every shopaholic is like that, but I'm just doing it to show you to what kind of person I think about when I think about "shopaholism".

I got some article to translate to you.
To be accurate, the comments.
It's about depression, it's another inner-view into the mentally-ill world.
Why won't they just... I don't know... Do something with this Israeli shofoony (I have actually no idea how to translate it, or from where it came) culture's nosiness, or just plain nosiness that the humans are so great at demonstrating.
I really need to name it under one category and then sub-categorize it, so those people will be in parts.

Well, it's a celebrity, I think he was an actor, and he's in a band, and a comedian, I think.
Well, I have no idea, it took me a while to recognize him, and then I had to google him and check in which place I saw him.
He was some vampire in Split.
I know this show, I spent a month watching it over and over.
I can't stand this show now.
I overdosed in some television.
I have troubles with dealing with stupid triangle relationships, that's why I'm book shaming obvious books, like fat shaming, or thin shaming.
Or anything that might lead for shaming others.

Before the article with the comment/rant about that this person (the celebrity) have no idea what's depression, because the commenter suffered that, and you probably know.
I think I'm not going to publish it.
It's too serious, and I don't want to ruin my happiness.

...

Do you remember my sim?
Alejandro?
Well, my awesome simmer is rich.
He got around 70,000 money units.
I made him to catch a ton of roaches and simple bugs, and then I made him to put on them the radiation test, after a while, they became plasma bugs, that if you donate them to the lab, their price varies from 4,200-4,800 which is great!
And his job gets him around 1300 each day, and now thanks to his new collector from the rewards thingy, it'll be twice as easy to make him get seeds so he'll get to the highest rank in his job (he's now at 7! or higher...) because he needs gardening.
He's lifetime wish is to master the science skill (I can't wait for the dna option!) and to get to rank 10 in business/medical/science careers!
It's awesome!
And he got plenty of sim-days.
Soon I'll find him a lady, and I'll design his house for bigger life, and I'll have a child.
I'm not sure I'm going to put him in easy life option, because it's nicer to make him work for his stuff.

Meanwhile, look at what I did!

I like it.
I want to work on her facial expression and hair, I think I'm going to take this thing on the top of her hair off, and close her mouth.
I really like how I shaded her body!
The right arm (the one that's closer to us) looks weird, I'm going to fix her elbow.

Liked it?
The colored one is probably my template.
I like it.
Okay, I think I'm going to redraw something.
Sounds weird, I know, but I want to check if I made progress.
I know I did.
I saw my recent ones and  my old ones.
The old in Sai and in artrage!

I'm boiling in here!
Why bangs must be so hot?!
I feel like I'm on fucking fire.
I hate hair.
So useless, stupid, annoying.
I'll never understand why people want it so much.
The moment it'll be long enough, I'm cutting it again.
Stupid hair.
Uncomfortable...

I'm starting, and I'm going to continue tomorrow.

Goodnight people.
Tomorrow is a preparation full of movie loading and checking because tomorrow depressing shit starts.