I wonder now, why if I never understood that parents lie for you about anything so it'll make you feel better?
I figured that out when I was five, ever since, I never believed a damn word that my parents say.
I am going to ram today, I felt a little ill this morning but I have to, because I want to, and what I say is a must.
I also wear shorts, I felt skinnier today even though that the scale says the same number (sighs, I expects for even a bit of weightloss) so I wore shorts, not complete with my decisions, but to hell with my insecurities.
I ate half a tub of my icecream.
I PROBABLY CONSUMED 700 calories.
Oh fuck.
I feel awful about it!
I'm glad that today I have a practice.
Maybe it'll help (I know it won't).
At least soon I'll burn it, right?
There's this girl, inbar, I haven't informed you about what happened on the field trip, have I?
Well, anyway, I used to think that she's nice and bullied for no reason (from some reason, I tend to believe that the bullied ones are nicer, which is not always true) but she's really assish (I don't think it's even a word) arrogant looking down on others sort of bitch.
Kind of like (POTENTIAL SPOILER ALERT FOR NIGHT STAR IN THE IMMORTALS BY ALYSON NOEL!) stacia, after that she got kicked out from the A table by her friends who turned on her with the help of Haven and Honor.
She deserved it in some way.
When people are really shitty to you, they deserve a lot of things.
Electrocution is my basic idea for it, maybe a bunch of burningly hot stones and/or coals and/or the actual flames, on her tongue. People with such a language shouldn't speak much, do they?
Why do I even remember this? And why do I pay so much attention to it?
I was wearing my "thank you for the venom" shirt....
Asshole.
Who the fucked aske you to do so?
I am thirteen not sixteen, nor eighteen, I don't deserve patronizing.
You shall rise up and get the beating that you deserve to, both for calling me a "crazy guy" (Am I an insane male to him?) and for being so ride to everybody and his hell.
His squeaky voice pisses me off.
Do I wish death for others too often?
Back to the story, I was wearing it (partly proud of wearing a short shirt and shorts on public without stressing about it) and when people tried to look and read my shirt (it was funny, I never thought that English Speakers -even the ones who came from an English speaking place to Israel- can be so slow at reading!) which was like "thank.. Thank you.. For... The... Veenoom? Vanome?.. Ve-nom..? Venom?" And then they asked me what it meant and I said "thank you for the" and then I forgot how to say venom in Hebrew!
I just said that it's something like poision and I just tried to figure it out with my head with "snakes have it, spiders have it, vampires in some movies have it, what it's name again?" And only at the evening (twelve hours of trying to figure it out...) I was pretty much standing lousily, then I figured it out, and stood up straight with a brightened expression on my face with a fuckung lightbulb over my head, and I just told Shani "Shani I know how to finally translate it!" And I said finally venom in Hebrew!
And then like inbar said "yeah venom is venom in Hebrew, everybody knows that".
The italic one is for the things she said on English.
Asshole.
Why do you think that everybody asked what it meant?
I hate people who does that.
Okay, now it's almost seven.
I feel like a disgusting pig.
Now, my mother just put out all of her anger on me.
Fucking awesome feeling.
I'm angry and I hate to hear music when I'm angry, it surprisingly calmed me down.
Today, Yaheli came, that fat girl who was in ram but quit and liked Doctor Who (we argued about how you pronounce daleks, I said dalik and she said dalk or something, I was correct, because that's how the Canadians and Americans say it, the British people ay dal*eh*ks) and she'll return.
Another facts about her, she's vegetarian (as far as I remember), she it in a democratic school, and probably a hipster.
She mocked me today about the venom part.
Fucking asshole.
Shut. The. Fuck. Up. If. You. Think. That. You. Have. The. Right. To. Be. Or. Think. That. You. Are. Superior. Or. Better. In. Every. Single. Thing.
....
What is the comment I was looking for?
Oh!
Chavs...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l2WkU0ZK9w
I'm serious.
I wouldn't be pissed if my child would lose it's virginity by sixteen, but I would be like "DID YOU USE PROTECTION" because, as long as it is it's (I know it may be confusing) idea, and not from socially involved pressure, or that it pressured somebody else, then I'm fine.
I started from episode 3 (I think) and now I'm on five.
And it's weird.
All I do is hearing Boys Like Girls on 1.5X speed or 2X speed.
It's super weird.
I hate it when people call each other like nicknames of Honey.
ON EPISODE FIVE IT'S LIKE EVER AND DAMEN AND STACIA AND JUDE.
It's so weird.
With the longish black hair (Damen) and the pale blonde (?) girl (Ever) and the cool brown haired boy (Jude) and that evil blonde tan bitch that'll regret about everything afterwards (Stacia).
All we need is a six hundred years old, and his orphan girlfriend and her ex-friend who turned evil after her (and I quote:) ballerina phase, preppy phase, goth phase, emo phase, and her current super-scary immortal witch phase (page 281, Night Star) and stuff.
At first I tried to find it in the book, failed once, googled it, I found a lot of partly-expected links and failed, book, and a fail, google, an incredible fail (I might judge a bunch), and I finally found it.
I'm glad that I remembered it.
OH SHIT!
I wonder how they translated it..
Well ballerina and gothic are easy, the problem is preppy and emo.
Studential?
Is that even a known word? For the Hebrew Academy?
Instead of finding another non-catchy word for an existing word, maybe they should fit themselves, they don't have to worry about youth not using super-high words.
They have me! I will talk to people in so many words that I love, I'd probably be sarcastic half the time.
YES!
FINALLY SOMETHING TO SAY WHY GIRLY GIRL PHASES ARE IN FACT, EVIL AND SATANIC JUST AS PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT BAND MERCH SHOPS WITHOUT ANY DAMN CDS CAN BE LABELED AS A MUSIC SHOP.
I'll never forgive them.
By the way, they closed the cd store that's in the other main street in my city!
For a change, people should understand that you don't have to only hear Eyal Golan, my friend can list you a decent amount of actually good Israeli bands (by the way Israeli bands, that metal band is still pissing me off, because they are Israeli and the video wasn't available in Israel!) so, don't upset people.
And the judgeable topic is (excitement!) 4GIRLS.
Remember it?
I mentioned it on the first-ish posts on the weirdest blog ever: Play It.
It just showed you how much can you change in a year.
From a girly girl, to a... Weird person?
Oh right, "preteen" it makes sense.
I just made my way deeper to my wanno world (I figured out that I'm not after the title of Ana, I'm more into the disorder, and I'm fully aware of my own harmful actions, so yeah).
Wow, I can't believe I'm going to do it...
Let's go.
Just for you to know, that I don't know if they changed it, but I'm scared.
They changed it, I think they have blogs in there.
Wow, same shallow "girly girl" shit.
Periods, and outer looks (SO MUCH OF THAT SHIT), and embarrassing shit.
I summed it up, it's girly girl bullshit with "I'm popular and cute and I have to look sexy because it's 2014" sprinkled with shame and menstruated blood.
I can see it as a cake.
By the way cakes.
If somebody ever makes one for me, it'd better be large enough for female/male strippers.
No!
I KNOW.
A crucified person whom I despise!
Oh, I know how to describe in a single word!
Shoofooni!
A reminder: I never found a legitimate word, so fuck it.
Attention whores, with a bit of typical American movie (sometimes even an anti-)heroine, can be described as white hoes.
I really hate how much they mention about thinness and really lame fashion.
Dude, people take it seriously!
People that took it seriously were betrayed and started to have a massive change because that "people" was so scarred from it and the "people" who done it to the betrayed "people" is another reader!
I'm talking about me and queen bee Yali.
Wow, I'm always an anti-heroine or just the enemy of the heroine.
Anti-heroine = the heroine that isn't perfect with looks or personality as another person is or seems to be.
Enemy = the complete opposite from another character.
I feel like some sort of a wicked Honor (from The Immortals), or Stacia.
It's weird.
Okay, I didn't say it before because I didn't take it too bad, but today Lea asked me if we already had the growth check, she asked me what's my height (maybe she didn't want to insult me with me sharing my weight) and after a while in the conversation, Yael asked me if I started saving money for the checks, and I asked her why would I save money, she said that I'll need to pay them for repairing the scale after I'll stand on it and break it.
Wow, I guess my usual "brush it off" sort of shield was there, and now it's not here to protect me, and I'm taking it a little bit worse.
Fucking fun, isn't it?
But I don't worry about it that much, after all, it was my choice, my decision to go this way.
I'm trying to delete some tabs, but I found an amazing one!
It's an "emo" Wikihow article I haven't read.
I found it thanks to my attempt for finding the quote.
I really look for more emotional people than emotive metalcore fans.
I'm just fascinated!
For amount I was about to headlessly sing along to Cancer.
NOPE.
So nope.
I'm not ready to anything about death.
That's why I'm okay with torturing people but not instantly killing them.
I'll never find what I want.
Unless I'm simming with my Alejandro sim, after I randomized his traits.
He's now over-emotional, or that his wife is?
At least he's not Unstable.
Unstable sims annoy the fuck out of me!
I hate people who does that.
Okay, now it's almost seven.
I feel like a disgusting pig.
Now, my mother just put out all of her anger on me.
Fucking awesome feeling.
I'm angry and I hate to hear music when I'm angry, it surprisingly calmed me down.
Today, Yaheli came, that fat girl who was in ram but quit and liked Doctor Who (we argued about how you pronounce daleks, I said dalik and she said dalk or something, I was correct, because that's how the Canadians and Americans say it, the British people ay dal*eh*ks) and she'll return.
Another facts about her, she's vegetarian (as far as I remember), she it in a democratic school, and probably a hipster.
She mocked me today about the venom part.
Fucking asshole.
Shut. The. Fuck. Up. If. You. Think. That. You. Have. The. Right. To. Be. Or. Think. That. You. Are. Superior. Or. Better. In. Every. Single. Thing.
....
What is the comment I was looking for?
Oh!
Chavs...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l2WkU0ZK9w
I'm serious.
I wouldn't be pissed if my child would lose it's virginity by sixteen, but I would be like "DID YOU USE PROTECTION" because, as long as it is it's (I know it may be confusing) idea, and not from socially involved pressure, or that it pressured somebody else, then I'm fine.
I started from episode 3 (I think) and now I'm on five.
And it's weird.
All I do is hearing Boys Like Girls on 1.5X speed or 2X speed.
It's super weird.
I hate it when people call each other like nicknames of Honey.
ON EPISODE FIVE IT'S LIKE EVER AND DAMEN AND STACIA AND JUDE.
It's so weird.
With the longish black hair (Damen) and the pale blonde (?) girl (Ever) and the cool brown haired boy (Jude) and that evil blonde tan bitch that'll regret about everything afterwards (Stacia).
All we need is a six hundred years old, and his orphan girlfriend and her ex-friend who turned evil after her (and I quote:) ballerina phase, preppy phase, goth phase, emo phase, and her current super-scary immortal witch phase (page 281, Night Star) and stuff.
At first I tried to find it in the book, failed once, googled it, I found a lot of partly-expected links and failed, book, and a fail, google, an incredible fail (I might judge a bunch), and I finally found it.
I'm glad that I remembered it.
OH SHIT!
I wonder how they translated it..
Well ballerina and gothic are easy, the problem is preppy and emo.
Studential?
Is that even a known word? For the Hebrew Academy?
Instead of finding another non-catchy word for an existing word, maybe they should fit themselves, they don't have to worry about youth not using super-high words.
They have me! I will talk to people in so many words that I love, I'd probably be sarcastic half the time.
YES!
FINALLY SOMETHING TO SAY WHY GIRLY GIRL PHASES ARE IN FACT, EVIL AND SATANIC JUST AS PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT BAND MERCH SHOPS WITHOUT ANY DAMN CDS CAN BE LABELED AS A MUSIC SHOP.
I'll never forgive them.
By the way, they closed the cd store that's in the other main street in my city!
For a change, people should understand that you don't have to only hear Eyal Golan, my friend can list you a decent amount of actually good Israeli bands (by the way Israeli bands, that metal band is still pissing me off, because they are Israeli and the video wasn't available in Israel!) so, don't upset people.
And the judgeable topic is (excitement!) 4GIRLS.
Remember it?
I mentioned it on the first-ish posts on the weirdest blog ever: Play It.
It just showed you how much can you change in a year.
From a girly girl, to a... Weird person?
Oh right, "preteen" it makes sense.
I just made my way deeper to my wanno world (I figured out that I'm not after the title of Ana, I'm more into the disorder, and I'm fully aware of my own harmful actions, so yeah).
Wow, I can't believe I'm going to do it...
Let's go.
Just for you to know, that I don't know if they changed it, but I'm scared.
They changed it, I think they have blogs in there.
Wow, same shallow "girly girl" shit.
Periods, and outer looks (SO MUCH OF THAT SHIT), and embarrassing shit.
I summed it up, it's girly girl bullshit with "I'm popular and cute and I have to look sexy because it's 2014" sprinkled with shame and menstruated blood.
I can see it as a cake.
By the way cakes.
If somebody ever makes one for me, it'd better be large enough for female/male strippers.
No!
I KNOW.
A crucified person whom I despise!
Oh, I know how to describe in a single word!
Shoofooni!
A reminder: I never found a legitimate word, so fuck it.
Attention whores, with a bit of typical American movie (sometimes even an anti-)heroine, can be described as white hoes.
I really hate how much they mention about thinness and really lame fashion.
Dude, people take it seriously!
People that took it seriously were betrayed and started to have a massive change because that "people" was so scarred from it and the "people" who done it to the betrayed "people" is another reader!
I'm talking about me and queen bee Yali.
Wow, I'm always an anti-heroine or just the enemy of the heroine.
Anti-heroine = the heroine that isn't perfect with looks or personality as another person is or seems to be.
Enemy = the complete opposite from another character.
I feel like some sort of a wicked Honor (from The Immortals), or Stacia.
It's weird.
Okay, I didn't say it before because I didn't take it too bad, but today Lea asked me if we already had the growth check, she asked me what's my height (maybe she didn't want to insult me with me sharing my weight) and after a while in the conversation, Yael asked me if I started saving money for the checks, and I asked her why would I save money, she said that I'll need to pay them for repairing the scale after I'll stand on it and break it.
Wow, I guess my usual "brush it off" sort of shield was there, and now it's not here to protect me, and I'm taking it a little bit worse.
Fucking fun, isn't it?
But I don't worry about it that much, after all, it was my choice, my decision to go this way.
I'm trying to delete some tabs, but I found an amazing one!
It's an "emo" Wikihow article I haven't read.
I found it thanks to my attempt for finding the quote.
I really look for more emotional people than emotive metalcore fans.
I'm just fascinated!
For amount I was about to headlessly sing along to Cancer.
NOPE.
So nope.
I'm not ready to anything about death.
That's why I'm okay with torturing people but not instantly killing them.
I'll never find what I want.
Unless I'm simming with my Alejandro sim, after I randomized his traits.
He's now over-emotional, or that his wife is?
At least he's not Unstable.
Unstable sims annoy the fuck out of me!
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