Independence? You made me laugh!

Today it's the independence day.
Yesterday I celebrated with Yael, in the annual celebration.
It's the same each year.
Deafeningly-loud music.
Youth with alcoholic drinks and cigarettes.
Children with string-sprays or foam-sprays that are illegal.
Crying babies, because they can't contain the noise, and dogs as well.
Pathetic firework "shows" that are just polluting the air and are too expensive.
I fucking hate those celebrations.
The thing that I hate the most is the fact that each city, pays a ridiculous amount of money (around half a million to a million NIS) for a bunch of repeating artists, that will probably be bashed by the crowd.
Like in Modi'in, with Aviv Gefen (I don't think I'll ever like him, as a person or as a musician), the people were against  his performance, because he's against people joining the army, and in Israel it matters, a lot.

Great, my mother triggers me all the time.
Maybe she can't even notice it, and I'm just paranoid, but I think she's doing it in purpose.
Just to keep me on my route, on my way to check the eating disorder part on my bucket list.
Maybe she just wants the title of "My daughter has an eating disorder".
People glamorize it anyway, so why won't everybody want that?

You have no idea how much I wanted to cut in the past month (there are few things I haven't published, because they don't seem to matter, but I accidently scratch my wrist sometimes, it became a fucking reflex) so the fact that she's triggering me, does not help.

Self-righteous hypocritical people make me sick
A person with ALS (I think) is writing an article about how happy he is, and how great life can be when you are positive.
Most of people said "You're amazing/ I'm inspired/ You're beautiful/ Keep on going!" and the other of the bullshit that people write to handicapped people (they are normal just like every other human, and people treat them with excessive care, they can speak for themselves, and some can handle being alone), and how great he is.

I know that I would've been twice as happy if I had the financial options of him.


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I'm watching now videos, and then I'll enjoy with simming because I finished with Alejandro's legacy statue, so now all I need is to give his wife Dawn, which was Blaise but I changed her name, and I want her to be a trendsetter.
I watched The Best Break Up Line Ever, for the tenth time, and in the suggestion they had Grumpy Ben (so grumpy!) and Too Much Is Too Much, which is a sims 2 videos (they love the ones about ugly and pretty, and eating disorders, or the biggest title in the storyline which is an emo love story, and other than that, there's the music videos), after I'm done, I'll put some simlish songs and then maybe Creature Feature or Fall Out Boy, or I'll go on with my satanic iTunes player.
I love simlish songs.
I love whoever who thought that "let's get performers and ask them to sing in simlish their songs!" and all of the ones who supported his idea.
And I like the people who decided to cooperate with Katy Perry (all hail the EA people!).
Now I'm at the beginning of the second song in TMITM, and it's Helena.
I finished it, I wonder what the hell happened to Britney Spears' Oops I Did It Again, because it sounds like somebody is mocking her voice on top of the song.
I'm not surprised by the ending, the romeo and juliet bullshit is common there.


Okay, just take a look.



Both female sims are lying on the ground, supposed to be dead.
I just searched with my key words of "sims 3" "sad" and "love"

Okay, the second picture has a remake, and as a person who loved anything Simmy since the third grade (CURTIS AND HIS LEGENDARY BUILDINGS AND HIS ACCENT) I watched the original one, so I must watch the remake!

I need to check it up, but they have a thing with My Chemical Romance and Britney Spears on their videos.
I don't know why, but who cares, I'd still watch it.

Why do I have So Alone of  Anna Blue as a suggestion?
It's not even "recommended for you" it's suggested!

Is it bad that I smiled for the last four minutes of the video?
I just tried to not laugh.
I'm serious, I just really tried to stop thinking about "lik ths if u cry evertim"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btB03kRMGSA
But it's only because how repetitive the topic is, and because of her awful grammar.

Sometimes I wonder, what the hell is wrong with the simmers, and then I remember that the dedicated ones are mostly fanguys/girls, which are passionate about everything they love.

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After some sim working, and some sim watching, and after being sad that I can't find the original playlist where I could hear everything (the ones that include the audio only of Need You Now, and We Are Young under the title of "We Are Young Simlish" and not "Wee Bah Yoo"), I started drawing a bit.

Now I'm trying to read the comment of an article that asks what's the most Israeli thing by the readers' opinions.
It makes me wonder what went wrong in the past 66 years.
I remember being told about the immigrants and pioneers, that I love, when they came here, they wanted to build the new Hebrew person, that lives in Israel, it didn't have anything to do with religion.
Think about it, we could've been just like every other country and not with the divided passports by religion, and in the identity cards as well.
They didn't want religion in the way, they claimed that Judaism belongs to the diaspora (I don't think I used this word correctly).
It kind of upsets me.
Well, not kind of, it does upset me.
A lot!
I want a Hebrew Man, that lives in a country with it's cultural locations, like Jerusalem, and the Kinneret (or the Sea of Galilee), or Natzrat, or The Jordan "River" (river is a big word for that 3 meter wide shallow water stream, that even then  barely moves), or whatever you'd like.
The new Hebrewman, a one that speaks hebrew as his first language.
The new Hebrew Man, the one that's patriotic, not because he grew to be this way, but because that there's nothing to hate in this country.
A place that is not hated by it's surroundings, and a place that for once will rise up, and stand for itself, instead of being a cunt in front of the muslims and arabs.
This place is small anyway, so taking out places is unacceptable, but peace is so simple, if you hate the place, you are no longer a citizen if you don't want to, but you must leave in a specific amount of time, as you are useless to this place.
The army will be mostly for light protection and for keeping the tradition, the time that staying is a must will be reduced and equal for both genders (there's a three months difference, the girls finish earlier) as it doesn't matter.

I got a massive rebuilt for this place.
Destroy all the useless antique buildings, and rebuild everything, don't even ask if the citizens permit, maybe they'll disagree, but their children will thank you, for letting them to live without the economic catastrophe we live in, build skyscrapers, we might have a limit in the ground, but we got a couple of kilometers in the skys.
Use the Negev for once, BG had this wonderful idea of building in there, and why won't we, we got great spaces in there! Start with factories, solar energy screens that will put a use for all of the hot and sunny summer days, because that's where we live, start with working the ground, and grow animals or plants that fit the weather, or build massive greenhouses for the plants that doesn't fit, like tomatoes that got ridiculously expensive!
Give the illegal-migrants a place to work and live, and they'll start in those colonies.
Everybody complains about them anyway.

While the government care about the peace that won't happen soon(it didn't happen in the past 66 years! Maybe you should try something else?!) why won't they just work with other problems, with more logical solutions.
Instead of making "cheaper" (lies!) apartments, build new ones, in an available place, and don't give a fuck about how much they want to live in Tel Aviv, if they want the center-buzz, make the buzz happen outside, massively! Open bars, parks, cinemas, markets, everything!
It's so simple!
Why won't it be?
Attract attention, people will come.


I'm tired of reading about all of these soldiers, seeing their best-friends, dying, in front of their eyes, in another war, that will occur again as soon as the enemy will reload their supplies.
And I wouldn't say that if we lives in a place where being in the army will give you respect because it's not an obvious act! It's in Israel, and you are forced to go there.

The fact that I might be in my place (I want to go to the information area, and listen to people and to locate them, and guide the operators to the place, in order to exterminate the danger, but who the hell knows where they'll send me, hopefully back home) and just hear them, falling, screaming helplessly for help, but nobody will save them, because they are already a dead men.
I just can't deal with death of people who shouldn't die, at least, not in the specific occasion.
I don't want people to die when it can be avoided, and it pisses me off when people who need you alive, don't give a fuck, because they can't understand how much..

Okay, this is weird, I talk like I've been there, and saw everything.


I tried to translate audacity in Hebrew to English, I found it amusing that it gave me the option of Chutzpa.
But we all know about our chutzpa!
It's what being Israeli is about, it's all over in the people who dare to call themselves Israelis.
Doesn't matter what's your religion, or first language, all you need to know is who you are, and even if your self esteem is lower than the dead sea, you are still who you are, and you don't give a fuck as long as you stand on your point and know who you are.
You are always like that.

I like Fall Out Boy's Save Rock & Roll video clips.
I need to check who's the responsible for the brilliant videos.
I'm on Alone Together (4/11) and so far it seems like something that can happen if from some reason I'd find myself in the mafia.
If I'd need to close a deal with somebody, I would love to torture him/her (usually a him) until he agrees.
I got various ways to do so, before and after Creepypasta (I never lacked of brutal ways to destroy enemies), I guess I'm just good on idea for illegal activities, maybe because my father is a detective.
One of the ones that I remember from the beginning is that I thought that if I'd work in a hospital, I'd bet on the patients lives, after a couple of years I found out that it happened in somewhere in Vegas.

Violent technique tip of the day: Use resiniferatoxin on your enemies, maybe just taunt them, with putting it on their tongue, for being a nicer person that won't give their enemies chemical burns, you can give them pure capsaicin, it's ten times weaker than RTX, but it's ten times stronger than chilli peppers.
If chilli hurts your tongue and makes you to beg for bread to ease the pain, than RTX is hundred times worse.
Have fun imagining people begging for help, pleading you against the crime you are about to commit, while you taunt each piece of their skin with unbearable pain of burns.

I love the idea of burn people with power of food, and molecules.
If it was up to me, I'd learn every single thing I can possibly learn about atoms, molecules, and I'd use the prisoners as the test subjects, after all, they deserve pain more than mice and rabbits.
Maybe it does sound too much like The Russian Sleeping Experiment (I'm always surprised that it's also a name of a band), but it's a great idea, instead of funding the prisons, and letting the rude people who allow themselves a bit too much, you can bring an actual punishment, and not a roof to sleep under, and food.
I can already see all the tycoons and politicians, tested on the final product, even though there's no use to re-testing it, just for their pain, they deserve it.

Good night, have nice dreams.