Suicide.
I can't stop thinking about suicide.
It's really upsetting, because I find more cases of it, and I just think, Why not? only to remind myself later that I'm going to screw everybody elses' lives and that those are just the pills, and I'll be sort-of alright when I'd finish puberty.
But it's my fault, why would I take the pills if not for my pathetic eating habits?
Each time that I need to take them all over again, it's because of that I don't eat like I should.
I skip meals enough for my body to not want to reproduce.
I'm tired of it, seriously, I can't take death easily, I just feel a lot of guilt.
I can't deal with stuff right now, talk to me in two weeks for a good logical and a healthy response.
I don't want to go to Jerusalem tomorrow.
I just hate this place, too much religion, too much bullshit.
We're going to visit the Western Wall (Kotel).
What am I supposed to do there?!
Okay, since that I just went to the Cabria, I also went afterwards for flafel with the guys, it was fun.
On the coming Friday I'm going to watch the Mondial with them, Spain and Holland if I remember it correctly.
I'm happy with them, they are normal, we listened to some dubstep and one of the guys likes the Google Translate band, so it's pretty cool.
Okay, I'm reading now some classic Israeli groups, I'm sorry for making this post short, I was very busy today.
Anyway, just some nice information for CP.
Go and read Humannequin and put Moonlight Serenade on repeat when the music starts in the story.
Have fun.
Okay, guys, I won't be posting much, I won't even say that I'm sorry.
Just a casual reminder, everything gets better when you're finally more "free" than what you were when you were underaged.
Just a couple of year from now.
Since I have a coffee shop next to my building, they are making a gig evening, which is lovely, Arik Einstein songs, so nice.
It makes me to not want to close my window for the air conditioning.
Oh well, I think that they are three or something people in there, at least one female and one male, or two males and one of them has a very good feminine voice, or two females and one of them has a very masculine voice.
One last published thought.
If I ever collect enough money, I'm definitely reopening Abarbanel.
That'd be so awesome.
Some people will call me crazy for doing so, but this institution is fucking epic, they won't even have to change the name, and I'd love it, just imagine it....
I can't stop thinking about suicide.
It's really upsetting, because I find more cases of it, and I just think, Why not? only to remind myself later that I'm going to screw everybody elses' lives and that those are just the pills, and I'll be sort-of alright when I'd finish puberty.
But it's my fault, why would I take the pills if not for my pathetic eating habits?
Each time that I need to take them all over again, it's because of that I don't eat like I should.
I skip meals enough for my body to not want to reproduce.
I'm tired of it, seriously, I can't take death easily, I just feel a lot of guilt.
I can't deal with stuff right now, talk to me in two weeks for a good logical and a healthy response.
I don't want to go to Jerusalem tomorrow.
I just hate this place, too much religion, too much bullshit.
We're going to visit the Western Wall (Kotel).
What am I supposed to do there?!
Okay, since that I just went to the Cabria, I also went afterwards for flafel with the guys, it was fun.
On the coming Friday I'm going to watch the Mondial with them, Spain and Holland if I remember it correctly.
I'm happy with them, they are normal, we listened to some dubstep and one of the guys likes the Google Translate band, so it's pretty cool.
Okay, I'm reading now some classic Israeli groups, I'm sorry for making this post short, I was very busy today.
Anyway, just some nice information for CP.
Go and read Humannequin and put Moonlight Serenade on repeat when the music starts in the story.
Have fun.
Okay, guys, I won't be posting much, I won't even say that I'm sorry.
Just a casual reminder, everything gets better when you're finally more "free" than what you were when you were underaged.
Just a couple of year from now.
Since I have a coffee shop next to my building, they are making a gig evening, which is lovely, Arik Einstein songs, so nice.
It makes me to not want to close my window for the air conditioning.
Oh well, I think that they are three or something people in there, at least one female and one male, or two males and one of them has a very good feminine voice, or two females and one of them has a very masculine voice.
One last published thought.
If I ever collect enough money, I'm definitely reopening Abarbanel.
That'd be so awesome.
Some people will call me crazy for doing so, but this institution is fucking epic, they won't even have to change the name, and I'd love it, just imagine it....
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