Sorry for not uploading lately, I'm "busy" doing all kinds of stuff.
Today I learned some basic HTML5 coding and CSS, and all of that things that will accompany my beginning in Tumblr.
Wait? What I said? Am I leaving for good to be in tumblr?
Maybe I will, maybe I won't.
I might return to being in this wonderful and merciful pit, but maybe my posts won't be as frequent, but I will post, mostly because I didn't get my graphic tablet yet (a beastly growl to accompany the words), once I get it, be sure that I'm going to have more tumblr stuff going on, because I'd be able to make an expressive comic strip style of my own!
Anyway, I am very sorry that it is how it is, I never wanted my blogs to be like all of these other blogs, who were personal for a short while and then they are diminished because of the lacking content.
I feel like I just screwed things up again, even though that blogging for over two years, and this blog for almost two years. (remember the old posts? including some depressive themes, such as "ohh I hate my life!" and all of that wonderful things, right now it's like "hey now you're an all star get your game on, go play!" because I'm that thrilled, something like in Tangled with "When Will My Life Begin" with all the excitement and anticipation, but not the hair thing, and the good singing voice thing, and... well, you got my point, and I'm making it sound like every other kitsch girly-girl blog... And the "and" doesn't help either... Fuck.)
I'm going to read some girly-girl posts and blogs, and alter them and make fun of them... Although that I like making fun of emos and scenes more often, mostly because of their obvious teenager attitude of Mr/Ms Knows-it-all, which can either be great if they have the right trait, but sometimes it's plain shitty, you might know what I mean, you could be either borderline asshole, and you can have that slightly "well I'm a teenager and this is puberty, I am allowed to do so!" which is what I aim for, minus the mistakes.
Okay, "Goth Andrew De Leon Amazes The Judges With His Voice" (I'm not even going to properly capitalize and adjust the title), and... WHAT.
How?!
That's incredible!
How come nobody found you yet and just offered you an extra-fancy contract, and why aren't you singing for diplomats/politicians/royals/rich-people/movie-soundtracks.
Usually horror-thriller-gore sort of movies, but also more pleasant ones that you'd happily show to your average five-year-old.
Ohh... That's so amazing.
But before he sang, and only the usual name and age and career "tag" appeared I was shocked by the age and career, it was "19, Makeup Artist", and the only thing that shocked me is the age.
I am not used to nineteeners without IDF clothing, I know he is not Israeli, but it's not a common thing for me, and most of people who don't serve in the army, I hate, mostly because of their shitty personality and attitude that went with their decision!
Oh guys, I watched "Attraction" at the Semi-Finals of Britain's Got Talent.
I was near crying, and I just wanted to tell some weird thing about the crying with me.
Except from the weird thing that it's very hard to cry for me unless it's specifically to benefit me at some way...
But the fact that if I'm about to cry/ while crying/ after crying, I just start to cry (again or just harder), because for me, it's probably the worst thing that can happen to me while crying.
I can list you a couple of reasons that may cause it, but I'm merely guessing.
# For starters, the humiliation in being seen something that I consider pathetic. (along with plenty of things that many humans do but I feel just shame and anger while doing so.)
# Maybe because I have an ugly cry (and an ugly smile, and an ugly resting-face, sometimes I think that being that predator from intruder would be better, and for who that doesn't know about Intruder, just imagine a blank head with hair, without a face, a bit like slenderman, just without the whiteness and hairless and the super-power stuff, although that the Intruder man got a poem about him....)
# Might have been caused by the fact that this action is degrading to my wanted image and a disgrace for all I stand for.
# It's a weak and pitiful act, where I cannot allow myself to behave this way.
I had more point that I forgot, I blame Dash, for being such an awesome website to teach you to design your own website!
Oh! Maybe I can change my blog's appearance, I always wanted it to be nicer, and for once, I might have the chance to create a better blogger background, but first of all, I'm probably going to change the background from white on black sea-horses to black on white, because I'm getting tired of having such darkness!
For once, no darkness.
Even though, that I found something pretty funny, after watching the "My Strange Addiction" episode about the one who drinks animal blood (it is just wrong, you don't see the Blood Bank runs after you in order to sedate you and then drain you with needles even though you don't want to do so!), one wrote that skulls and black and all that type of thing are pagan and Devil worshipping and that she's not a Jew, Muslim, or a Real Christian.
I know that Jews aren't allowed, no doubt about that, I believe that Muslims aren't allowed as well, and the Christians, well... I know that there was a saying by Jesus (it's so weird to me that it evolved from Hebrew: Yehoshua [today it usually translates into Joshua, meaning: God saved, the translition is a bit off, sorry] to Jesus in European languages, and now in Hebrew we call him Yeshu, which is pretty damn odd!) or something alike that, claiming that from now on, people can eat whatever they want, because Jesus died already for that sin or something like that (I'm probably wrong), and some Christians say that everything is everything, while others state that meat and the slaughter method haven't changed with it.
That man also said that it represent death.
Of course it is! That's why my closet is black! This is the funeral of fashion style, duh!
To be honest, I know I have a really cool style, but I just don't feel okay enough yet to pull it off, I'm usually more open when it's a new opportunity, which includes new time, (relatively) new place, and another (or new) status.
I mea....
I was about to say something, but I just figured out that when my skin problems (back acne.... Because puberty won't smack you in the face alone!) will dissapear and I'd finally get a reasonabe shape, from odd tween (when I think about body shape during teens, I think about the glitch-babies from Sims 3 with the crooked figures!?) to a reasonable sixteener to a young adult, if I'd still like it (probably would) and it'll fit me (hopefully yes, and if not, bit too large rather than way too small), I'd wear my incredibly gorgeous white dress that I bought from Hollister, and match it with the necklace with the dark-aqua gem pendant.
I just love that dress, I mean, it's so simple, and flowy!
It is perfect for people without flat/ almost flat/ concave bellies because it gets flowy from the boobs and down, and that kind of scares me, because the size I picked fits my body now, but I won't wear it until I can wear a teen bra, which means that I just need plenty of good genes and timing for it.
I might just order a new one.
To be honest, I think that it would be amazing to have it in more colours, just imagine how stunning it'll be!
Here's a photo:
It is almost identical, the only difference is that instead of lace, there's just another layer of thin cloth that has another texture.
I love it, and it'd just so perfect!
I mean, seriously, probably one of my prettier clothing pieces!
I'm going to bed, I'm trying to fix my biological clock!
Today I learned some basic HTML5 coding and CSS, and all of that things that will accompany my beginning in Tumblr.
Wait? What I said? Am I leaving for good to be in tumblr?
Maybe I will, maybe I won't.
I might return to being in this wonderful and merciful pit, but maybe my posts won't be as frequent, but I will post, mostly because I didn't get my graphic tablet yet (a beastly growl to accompany the words), once I get it, be sure that I'm going to have more tumblr stuff going on, because I'd be able to make an expressive comic strip style of my own!
Anyway, I am very sorry that it is how it is, I never wanted my blogs to be like all of these other blogs, who were personal for a short while and then they are diminished because of the lacking content.
I feel like I just screwed things up again, even though that blogging for over two years, and this blog for almost two years. (remember the old posts? including some depressive themes, such as "ohh I hate my life!" and all of that wonderful things, right now it's like "hey now you're an all star get your game on, go play!" because I'm that thrilled, something like in Tangled with "When Will My Life Begin" with all the excitement and anticipation, but not the hair thing, and the good singing voice thing, and... well, you got my point, and I'm making it sound like every other kitsch girly-girl blog... And the "and" doesn't help either... Fuck.)
I'm going to read some girly-girl posts and blogs, and alter them and make fun of them... Although that I like making fun of emos and scenes more often, mostly because of their obvious teenager attitude of Mr/Ms Knows-it-all, which can either be great if they have the right trait, but sometimes it's plain shitty, you might know what I mean, you could be either borderline asshole, and you can have that slightly "well I'm a teenager and this is puberty, I am allowed to do so!" which is what I aim for, minus the mistakes.
Okay, "Goth Andrew De Leon Amazes The Judges With His Voice" (I'm not even going to properly capitalize and adjust the title), and... WHAT.
How?!
That's incredible!
How come nobody found you yet and just offered you an extra-fancy contract, and why aren't you singing for diplomats/politicians/royals/rich-people/movie-soundtracks.
Usually horror-thriller-gore sort of movies, but also more pleasant ones that you'd happily show to your average five-year-old.
Ohh... That's so amazing.
But before he sang, and only the usual name and age and career "tag" appeared I was shocked by the age and career, it was "19, Makeup Artist", and the only thing that shocked me is the age.
I am not used to nineteeners without IDF clothing, I know he is not Israeli, but it's not a common thing for me, and most of people who don't serve in the army, I hate, mostly because of their shitty personality and attitude that went with their decision!
Oh guys, I watched "Attraction" at the Semi-Finals of Britain's Got Talent.
I was near crying, and I just wanted to tell some weird thing about the crying with me.
Except from the weird thing that it's very hard to cry for me unless it's specifically to benefit me at some way...
But the fact that if I'm about to cry/ while crying/ after crying, I just start to cry (again or just harder), because for me, it's probably the worst thing that can happen to me while crying.
I can list you a couple of reasons that may cause it, but I'm merely guessing.
# For starters, the humiliation in being seen something that I consider pathetic. (along with plenty of things that many humans do but I feel just shame and anger while doing so.)
# Maybe because I have an ugly cry (and an ugly smile, and an ugly resting-face, sometimes I think that being that predator from intruder would be better, and for who that doesn't know about Intruder, just imagine a blank head with hair, without a face, a bit like slenderman, just without the whiteness and hairless and the super-power stuff, although that the Intruder man got a poem about him....)
# Might have been caused by the fact that this action is degrading to my wanted image and a disgrace for all I stand for.
# It's a weak and pitiful act, where I cannot allow myself to behave this way.
I had more point that I forgot, I blame Dash, for being such an awesome website to teach you to design your own website!
Oh! Maybe I can change my blog's appearance, I always wanted it to be nicer, and for once, I might have the chance to create a better blogger background, but first of all, I'm probably going to change the background from white on black sea-horses to black on white, because I'm getting tired of having such darkness!
For once, no darkness.
Even though, that I found something pretty funny, after watching the "My Strange Addiction" episode about the one who drinks animal blood (it is just wrong, you don't see the Blood Bank runs after you in order to sedate you and then drain you with needles even though you don't want to do so!), one wrote that skulls and black and all that type of thing are pagan and Devil worshipping and that she's not a Jew, Muslim, or a Real Christian.
I know that Jews aren't allowed, no doubt about that, I believe that Muslims aren't allowed as well, and the Christians, well... I know that there was a saying by Jesus (it's so weird to me that it evolved from Hebrew: Yehoshua [today it usually translates into Joshua, meaning: God saved, the translition is a bit off, sorry] to Jesus in European languages, and now in Hebrew we call him Yeshu, which is pretty damn odd!) or something alike that, claiming that from now on, people can eat whatever they want, because Jesus died already for that sin or something like that (I'm probably wrong), and some Christians say that everything is everything, while others state that meat and the slaughter method haven't changed with it.
That man also said that it represent death.
Of course it is! That's why my closet is black! This is the funeral of fashion style, duh!
To be honest, I know I have a really cool style, but I just don't feel okay enough yet to pull it off, I'm usually more open when it's a new opportunity, which includes new time, (relatively) new place, and another (or new) status.
I mea....
I was about to say something, but I just figured out that when my skin problems (back acne.... Because puberty won't smack you in the face alone!) will dissapear and I'd finally get a reasonabe shape, from odd tween (when I think about body shape during teens, I think about the glitch-babies from Sims 3 with the crooked figures!?) to a reasonable sixteener to a young adult, if I'd still like it (probably would) and it'll fit me (hopefully yes, and if not, bit too large rather than way too small), I'd wear my incredibly gorgeous white dress that I bought from Hollister, and match it with the necklace with the dark-aqua gem pendant.
I just love that dress, I mean, it's so simple, and flowy!
It is perfect for people without flat/ almost flat/ concave bellies because it gets flowy from the boobs and down, and that kind of scares me, because the size I picked fits my body now, but I won't wear it until I can wear a teen bra, which means that I just need plenty of good genes and timing for it.
I might just order a new one.
To be honest, I think that it would be amazing to have it in more colours, just imagine how stunning it'll be!
Here's a photo:
It is almost identical, the only difference is that instead of lace, there's just another layer of thin cloth that has another texture.
I love it, and it'd just so perfect!
I mean, seriously, probably one of my prettier clothing pieces!
I'm going to bed, I'm trying to fix my biological clock!
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