Pain.

I believe I have fallen into a manic episode.
Or perhaps a hypomanic.
Increased sex-drive.
I've been endangering myself.
I don't sleep as much as I usually do.
I regret three quarters of the things I do after I do them.
I'm a mess.
I'm getting a bit psychotic.
Come on, that's not a normal behaviour, that's unhealthy.
I'm surprised, why I don't have a treatment for this hell? Why won't they cure me?
I need stability.



I need to harm myself.
Drinking? Puking? Scratching? Banging? Penetrating?
Numbness, purity, release, punishment, impureness.