First Practice

Well, I don't have anything I would commit I did, I would say, no fucking way, I won't ever admit something, for my personal mental (and maybe physical) health.

So yeah, I don't have eating disorders, I did this thing of not eating for a year or something in school. 

So now it's again, no surprise, I just don't like to eat at school. 

And yeah, I do want to end my close relationship with sweets and salts, that are unhealthy, actually, stopping with junk food. 

And yeah, I do skip meals sometimes, why? Two reasons, sometimes only one, sometimes both. 

1. Because I still don't feel hunger. 

2. Because I ate something unhealthy and/or with many calories. 

And sometimes, I just don't feel like it. 

It's not that I stopped eating everything. 

I cut off things that are unhealthy, like junk food, or things that is full of fat, or above a normal amount of calories, but I do eat unhealthy fats, like in meats (cow and chicken), or in nuts (hazelnuts, Brazilian nuts), and alike, and I do eat sugars, in fruits, in natural things. 

And I stopped with gluten. 

I might be allergic to it, but it's not that I'm 100% celiac, it's just that I don't eat tons of it. 

I'm just trying to eat healthier, it's not a bad idea for a kid like me, right?

So, now after that torturing practice (we ran over one kilometer, and then tons of other exercises), I ate cucumber (very healthy!), and 5 Brazilian Nuts (great source of healthy fats).
I'm getting relaxed, and waiting for my guitar lesson.
I'm thirsty.
Going to take a drink.

Wow, that was weird, after I went to drink, I just stood up, and when I ducked down, I almost threw up, it was weird, I was surprised.

So, dear human -breathing- beings, as much as I'd keep it going, this is probably the description of my diet plan.
NO JUNK FOOD.
AT ALL.
And when I say "junk food" I mean,  almost everything I ate/drank so far, the more natural it is, and healthy, it's something I would eat.
So pretty much it's like that:
-chocolate (never)
-things that goes in wrappers (you know what I mean)
-anything that have colors in it (that are fake).
-things that from one serving that I'd eat have above 100 calories (it's not right to do it, unless it's just because of the size, like apples).
But everything that is from the nature is pretty much good!
like:
-veggies and fruits (probably every kind)
-full wheat things (preferably)
-things that not only fill you up, but have good nutrition facts, like I can tell you already that hummus with egg it's a good source of protein.
-things that are in low calorie, but is also a full meal, like pasta with tomatoes and some cheese or meat, basically, you need to eat every day something that have everything in it, meaning, (low amount of) healthy fats, high fiber, protein, and low carbs, those things will make you healthy, and thin as fuck.

I really want chocolate right now, but it's better to eat something healthy and sweet, or just wait for dinner, which will happen right after my guitar lesson, which is good.
I have a carving for sweet, and it's a big no-no for me, this diet will pretty much murder and destroy the existence of carvings, binges, and the evidence I ever had them before.

So after eating my meal (I ate only half of it and got full thankfully to the tips of drinking a lot meanwhile and eating with your non dominant hand) the guitar teacher came, and I learned a new song of Coldplay (they used to have really good songs) named "Trouble", I like it, I like everything that have piano in it, I find that piano is one of the most beautiful and charming instruments, it never gets old, it's eternal.
Like piano is in everything, jazz, pop, classical (I have one song in the iPhone which is classical, it's beautiful), rock (this thing still makes me laugh, I didn't believe it was real, well, the rock I first heard about was those guys I'm still trying to figure out who they are, in the white room, and blood, and screaming, and scaring the shit out of 8 year olds like me), everywhere you'll hear a piano, and everywhere there are talented pianist, I'm not even close to the word talented I did well on the guitar today, but it was because it was easy, and on the clarinet, oh, the clarinet, I still suck, I still hate the terrible Squidward's style noises that come from it when I play it a little different.

I have a book reading list, each semester I'll have to read two, I'll better finish my thing with Reached, because I can't start something new when I don't finish something else.
I picked two, one I've seen, read, everything about it, the beautiful story of Alice In Wonderland, but, since there's another book I've heard tons about, is Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, this is what I want to read, really, it seems very inviting, what can I say? I love reading, writing, those kind of arts.

So, soon Rosh Hashana is starting, I'm prepared for Yom Kipur, last year I faster, during this year I'm fasting sometimes, but not for full day, the gym lessons can kill me if I won't eat.
And Yom Kipur will be the perfect day for reading the book.


Now, I'm tired, and it's obvious why.
After going to school, not eating much, then, walking for above a kilometer, then, eating nothing but water and a can of coke (zero), and running for above a kilometer, and walking half kilometer, then tons of ridiculous activities, it's explains it all.

I really want a snack.

My stomach is quiet upset, it's or that I ate too much after not eating, or that I'm still hungry.
I assume it's over eating.
Why?
I always do.
So when my stomach is like making weird noises, I just don't eat.
Simple as that.

You know, life in every fucking way is much better, when you have higher self control, the more you practice, the easier your life will be.

My mouth is bored, it's awful, most of times, when my stomach is making weird noises (over eating), and my mouth is bored, I'd guess it's being hungry, and I'll go to eat something that will make me gain weight, because it's empty calories.
Now, I will just chew on gum, or ice, depends on my mood, now it will be ice, I like gums more on day, when I'm tired, because they wake me, and brushing my teeth is equal to gum, same taste, waking me up the same.

So I'm going to chew some ice, learn to make composition notebooks, stuff like that, what I'll do for breakfast tomorrow, the usual of my changing-staying routine.

I guess you know what it means...

Berries, Survivors,
I hope you'll make it.