Oh fuck.
Now I'm at the bus station.
After school.
I need to wait about 5 minutes.
No water, there's food (like I'm going to eat it, ha! And I'm sweaty.
Today we ran a bit more than a kilometer, and then 600 walking.
I didn't know that I'm capable to run that much.
So my new bag.
Got ruined, obviously.
I just need to find my dad's old messenger, I love those bags, not a purse (it's heavy and uncomfortable, pretty much a thing that I won't suggest for junior high), or a backpack (unnecessarily big, and not very portable), and messenger, I need a perfect one, big enough for camera, my 14" laptop (I'm getting it this week, my dad upgraded it to me, touch screen) and all of my portable junk.
So I've just met my two friends from genius school, yay, I think.
And now I'm trying to get my old helix to its place.
Sadly, I'm being ignored, since I'm young, and there are two girls at their twenties, you know what priority there is, young hot chicks with money, men, me.
So lets hope that I'll get it soon.
Oh fucking god.
This is the coolest laptop ever (am I talking like a girly girl, wow, excitement takes everything out of me...)
It's hp, it's black (and shiny!) it got a touch screen, windows 8, but I can't open it, not until 6 pm, meaning, now it's four, and I'll be able to finish my post, with my new laptop!
Oh it's amazing!
Here's a photo!
The note is from my dad, just instructions, so I won't open it.
Oh god, (it's ironic word in this occasion) I watch a movie, it's awful.
I watch Saved! It's a movie about a Christian girl trying to "cure" her friend from his homosexuality (and people wonder why many believe that the chokers shovers Christians are evil), so it was nice, I like this Jewish girl, she was mean to them, it's like some Jewish thing, brother is a brother, sister is a sister, and it's cool as long as you don't rape or murder, especially if you murder somebody because his/hers homosexuality, life style (some are insane, but every religion got some).
And guess, what, now it's 7:32 pm, and guess what I'm using?
Yes, indeed!
My super cool windows 8 touch screen laptop.
I still write the posts with the keyboard, I like it better.
It's still weird to have this huge thing, my hands will need to get use to it.
So guess what I did, I drank two energy juices today (no lunch, no school food).
One is craneregy, I used one of the three in my locker, and now, instead of lunch/dinner, I drank Blu mochito, it's nice, I love Mexican juices, I love tacos, can you believe that this year I ate for the first time taco?
So, since to some thinspiration, tips, and want to look good at leggings, I barely ate today!
And one third of walking and two thirds of running, 3 times around school, it was awesome, we done 1860 meters!
My stomach and my side hurted, of course, but it was worth it, thanks to the skinny girls, I'm inspired.
I ate scrumbled eggs, tomato and about quarter cucmber, with a little olive oil, and a bit of salt.
Then, I drank water, skipped on school meal (some bun with sesame -I love sesame- and green apple), and after I had no water and I got thirsty and hungry, cranergy, which is a little above 100 calories.
And I skipped lunch, it was the easiest, I can always lie that I took a snack from this cafeteria/kiosk in school, and that I'm not hungry, so it's good, and around 6 pm, I drank the Blu drink, it's above 100 too.
It's awesome, when I drink too much caffeine, I become hyperactive, and it's so weird.
The coolest part of it is when like part of me says "Dvash! stop with this bullshit!" and the other one says "Haha! fuck you! hell no! it's fun!" it's like thirty year old, versus three year old.
I like energy drinks, maybe tomorrow I'll drink coffee for lunch, so I won't have to eat, but I still have tons of energy for the practice.
We have one hour practice tomorrow, about a hour or two after school, so it's good, I won't eat, I'll draw, hear music, blog, you know, the usual.
It's so awesome that I have school, so yeah I'm shy, but in no time I'll be fine.
I don't have to eat, I burn tons of calories (thank you sports class!), and yeah, I'm happy!
I just have these natural sport hormones, it's awesome, I'm not sad that I don't eat, I'm happy because I move, I discovered how energy drinks are awesome, I can run after school at the field, for fun, I'm going to be perfect.
My friend filmed me to Whatsapp after I drank Blu, and I was so hyperactive, I just ran to the room, saying "Rawr! I'm a lion!" because my hair looked puffy, and because of my lion shirt, it was awesome!
So all my friends are laughing, I guess I'll get better with energy drinks.
I just need to find some with very low calories, and still with high caffeine, it's better than binging, aren't it?
Look, few days ago, I just ate, nonstop, it was awful, now I'm better, I decided to cut off from all the eating.
I'm stopping with many bad sugars, I won't eat chocolate again, it's a dangerous trigger food, I just can't eat one, it's terrible, I don't want it, it's bad for me.
If I eat one sweet thing, It's my end, I won't stop, never, I can't feel my stomach when it's full, of course it's way better from the kids that just can't feel pain, they can bleed, liters from the red liquid, and not notice it, it's awful, it's happens with many children, they are perfect to horror movies.
Fuck, my leg can't stop moving.
I used to know a kid that always was hyper, I still know him, just a little less, he changed, we all did.
I'm going to search for low calorie energy drinks.
Well, online there's shit that it's not healthy, and that the maximum that a teenager should get caffeine is 100mg, I drank about 300 mg, oopsie!
I want to find alternatives, they say apples. or diet coke, or zero coke, I wonder which one I should pick, Ii have a coffee shop under the McDonald's building, but they don't say how many calories, so I'm not sure about it, although, in the kiosk under my building, there are cold coffee's in cans, probably diet too, but the problem is the caffeine, oh fuck.
I'll find a solution eventually, I'm good at doing it!
Oatmeal sounds nice, but what if I'll go exactly like my sugar crashes, when I just binge for sweetness, then I won't be able to stop, and there's the problem, maybe it'll be my breakfast (I always eat big breakfasts, they are making me strong for the day, even if I'm barely eating), like with milk, and honey, or an apple, for faster metabolism, it's healthier and more filling than honey.
Tomorrow I'm going to buy some berries (yay!), I'll make breakfasts, other meals, practice boosters.
And yeah, for smoothies!
Smoothies are perfect for everything, if you want, you can make hot smoothie, you just make smoothie, and instead of ice, you mix it with warm milk, it's amazing.
Wow, I might open a recipe blog because of it, if you'd like to join, just let me know, I don't know how, and I don't really care how, but I know that for sure, more recipes from around the world, it's perfect, it's like a worldwide haul, of awesomeness.
I will buy oatmeal, I think that with honey (it's like caramel, just with more nature in it -probably not the most smart and deep thing I've said-), it's like a true snack, seriously a dessert, but with apples, or berries, it's heaven on tongues, well, I should stop talking about food, if you're hungry and not eating (like me), you'll find writing on food calming, and reading, well only make you hungry, so I'm sorry (but not really, because I'm getting clamed).
Well, my muscles are sore, I guess it's from the paper bag I carried two days ago, with the school books, and it was pain in the ass (or arms, whichever that fits you).
Maybe it's the lack of energy, who knows.
So I know that energy drinks are bad, after all, they do keep you up, but still, the crash, and the calories are too high, so what if I burn them, the less I need to burn, the better.
And guess, what, now it's 7:32 pm, and guess what I'm using?
Yes, indeed!
My super cool windows 8 touch screen laptop.
I still write the posts with the keyboard, I like it better.
It's still weird to have this huge thing, my hands will need to get use to it.
So guess what I did, I drank two energy juices today (no lunch, no school food).
One is craneregy, I used one of the three in my locker, and now, instead of lunch/dinner, I drank Blu mochito, it's nice, I love Mexican juices, I love tacos, can you believe that this year I ate for the first time taco?
So, since to some thinspiration, tips, and want to look good at leggings, I barely ate today!
And one third of walking and two thirds of running, 3 times around school, it was awesome, we done 1860 meters!
My stomach and my side hurted, of course, but it was worth it, thanks to the skinny girls, I'm inspired.
I ate scrumbled eggs, tomato and about quarter cucmber, with a little olive oil, and a bit of salt.
Then, I drank water, skipped on school meal (some bun with sesame -I love sesame- and green apple), and after I had no water and I got thirsty and hungry, cranergy, which is a little above 100 calories.
And I skipped lunch, it was the easiest, I can always lie that I took a snack from this cafeteria/kiosk in school, and that I'm not hungry, so it's good, and around 6 pm, I drank the Blu drink, it's above 100 too.
It's awesome, when I drink too much caffeine, I become hyperactive, and it's so weird.
The coolest part of it is when like part of me says "Dvash! stop with this bullshit!" and the other one says "Haha! fuck you! hell no! it's fun!" it's like thirty year old, versus three year old.
I like energy drinks, maybe tomorrow I'll drink coffee for lunch, so I won't have to eat, but I still have tons of energy for the practice.
We have one hour practice tomorrow, about a hour or two after school, so it's good, I won't eat, I'll draw, hear music, blog, you know, the usual.
It's so awesome that I have school, so yeah I'm shy, but in no time I'll be fine.
I don't have to eat, I burn tons of calories (thank you sports class!), and yeah, I'm happy!
I just have these natural sport hormones, it's awesome, I'm not sad that I don't eat, I'm happy because I move, I discovered how energy drinks are awesome, I can run after school at the field, for fun, I'm going to be perfect.
My friend filmed me to Whatsapp after I drank Blu, and I was so hyperactive, I just ran to the room, saying "Rawr! I'm a lion!" because my hair looked puffy, and because of my lion shirt, it was awesome!
So all my friends are laughing, I guess I'll get better with energy drinks.
I just need to find some with very low calories, and still with high caffeine, it's better than binging, aren't it?
Look, few days ago, I just ate, nonstop, it was awful, now I'm better, I decided to cut off from all the eating.
I'm stopping with many bad sugars, I won't eat chocolate again, it's a dangerous trigger food, I just can't eat one, it's terrible, I don't want it, it's bad for me.
If I eat one sweet thing, It's my end, I won't stop, never, I can't feel my stomach when it's full, of course it's way better from the kids that just can't feel pain, they can bleed, liters from the red liquid, and not notice it, it's awful, it's happens with many children, they are perfect to horror movies.
Fuck, my leg can't stop moving.
I used to know a kid that always was hyper, I still know him, just a little less, he changed, we all did.
I'm going to search for low calorie energy drinks.
Well, online there's shit that it's not healthy, and that the maximum that a teenager should get caffeine is 100mg, I drank about 300 mg, oopsie!
I want to find alternatives, they say apples. or diet coke, or zero coke, I wonder which one I should pick, Ii have a coffee shop under the McDonald's building, but they don't say how many calories, so I'm not sure about it, although, in the kiosk under my building, there are cold coffee's in cans, probably diet too, but the problem is the caffeine, oh fuck.
I'll find a solution eventually, I'm good at doing it!
Oatmeal sounds nice, but what if I'll go exactly like my sugar crashes, when I just binge for sweetness, then I won't be able to stop, and there's the problem, maybe it'll be my breakfast (I always eat big breakfasts, they are making me strong for the day, even if I'm barely eating), like with milk, and honey, or an apple, for faster metabolism, it's healthier and more filling than honey.
Tomorrow I'm going to buy some berries (yay!), I'll make breakfasts, other meals, practice boosters.
And yeah, for smoothies!
Smoothies are perfect for everything, if you want, you can make hot smoothie, you just make smoothie, and instead of ice, you mix it with warm milk, it's amazing.
Wow, I might open a recipe blog because of it, if you'd like to join, just let me know, I don't know how, and I don't really care how, but I know that for sure, more recipes from around the world, it's perfect, it's like a worldwide haul, of awesomeness.
I will buy oatmeal, I think that with honey (it's like caramel, just with more nature in it -probably not the most smart and deep thing I've said-), it's like a true snack, seriously a dessert, but with apples, or berries, it's heaven on tongues, well, I should stop talking about food, if you're hungry and not eating (like me), you'll find writing on food calming, and reading, well only make you hungry, so I'm sorry (but not really, because I'm getting clamed).
Well, my muscles are sore, I guess it's from the paper bag I carried two days ago, with the school books, and it was pain in the ass (or arms, whichever that fits you).
Maybe it's the lack of energy, who knows.
So I know that energy drinks are bad, after all, they do keep you up, but still, the crash, and the calories are too high, so what if I burn them, the less I need to burn, the better.
So, tomorrows plan, egg whites, some tomato and cucumber, with a but of salt and a bit of olive oil (from now on, I call it salad, every salad is different, this is mine), and a glass of milk (for the bones, teeth, hair, nails, pretty much everything).
For lunch, well, maybe a berry or two, but even then, maybe not at all, maybe an apple, maybe a diet soda.
Dinner, well, that's hard to answer, hopefully, not, but the realistic one, small dinner.
I won't eat bread (my parents think I have celiac, it makes sense because my uncle have celiac, my sister have celiac, and my mother have celiac), and I will eat about three spoonfuls of the salad, with egg whites, and a tablespoon of hummus, that's the Norma, it's a lot, but it's the most (or least, depended how you see it) I can do.
So after it, after school, since there's no school gym (no leggings, sad sigh) I'll go with normal shorts, and I'll switch for the practice.
Back to after school, walking for about a kilometer (very not sure about it), to buy berries, it's might be after practice, it's good for relaxing the muscles.
And maybe oatmeal.
And just for the idea, blinches low cal recipe that tastes awesome as the real one.
For the people that don't know what is blinches, blinches is the word for pancakes on Russian (am I right?), the blinches are just like pancakes, the difference is that you roll it like a tortilla, and put in it things.
So, here it is.
Ingredients:
Rice paper (for large 60 cals, for small 20 cals, may vary, better to check it on your own).
Berries/fruits (something that isn't too hard to chew, pears, bananas, strawberries, other berries, cherries, but not apples, and alike)
Something that goes well with those (cheeses, melted or not, honey, even chocolate if you don't mind).
Bake the rice paper, or just use instructions, I don't know.
Meanwhile, chop the berries or fruits of needed, get your things ready.
When it's done, put all the things in the paper, roll like a tortilla and enjoy.
It's that damn easy, it's filling you (the rice paper is always low calorie and because it's stickiness, and chewing time, it's filling you), it's low on calorie (you can make the meal under 100, depends on the paper size), and it's super easy.
You can replace the rice paper (I won't recommend due the fact that you won't feel really full), with real tortillas, or real pancakes, or real other things.
Well, that's all, I guess, I'm going to open meal tips and everything tips, maybe not now, I'd gather material first.
Berries, Survivors,
I hope you'll make it.
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