Religion?

I'm a child, that is nothing but the young form of human being, another part of the amazingly big chaos.
And guess what, I'm forced to have a bit of religous part in me, not big like the new thing going in Israel.
I don't want that you'll get it wrong, because politicly correct is everything but I'm about to say, the new thing reminds me like a stanic cult, they are forcing you to believe their laws which slowly turning to Islam, their wifes, are pretty much slaves, their children, are just another 18 huamns that will take place in the over-populated world we are in anyway, and guess what? For me, they are fucking evil.

I'm starting to become an atheist (I have no idea what it even means, like seriously, how can you become an atheist, it's simple as fuck to be faithless in unexsisting thing), but I have no choice, by the law, I'm underaged, and I can't do a thing in my life until I'm legally independent, and it will take 6 more years, and after it, 3 more years serving the army, and then trying to get in college/university in Britian or America, or maybe just a place that all the lessons are on English.
I want to live this goddamn place, because taking religion out of this place is impossible, and in many many many different countries, the religion is obivously seperated from the place itself!
I'm turning angry with each time going to a religious place, if it's a synogauge or a church or mosque, not even a mountain that somebody made holy, and not a lake that a god pissed in, not a fucking way I'll be happy with it!
You can only imagine my face when we going to a vacation and my parents want to go to see a church or something!
I DON'T GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT RELIGION, AND ALL THE BELIEVES, HAVE FUN IN YOUR ILLUSIONS/DECIEVING JOYS!




You know, when boys are 5, they say to each other "You love girls!" as an insult, and for the "harmed" child denies it, scared from the fact it's true, but when boys are 15 will do the exact opposite, when one says to the other "You love boys!" in intention to hurt, the other "harmed" teen will deny it, scared from the fact it's true.
Funny.
How people change their minds because of what accepted and what people expected them to be.
 And even funnier, when I asked my brother if he's loving boys, he said proudly "yes".
And there's a religous child in our place, he said yes too, I wonder if his family is from the sympathizers too, hopefuly they are, because, you can never know, right?


Why should I go outside, sweat my ass off (which is never a good thing), and to suffer watcing other people, when I can do something in home, why the fuck should I do that?
I love the outdoors, but a specific kind of the outdoors, no bugs, no bugs but flies, and ants, wild beasts are fine, but no bugs around.


Wow, in Israel, the term of freedom seems to be written in the law, but never is actually used.
If I wan't to be lazy, I'll be lazy, if I feel that way, I'll feel that way, and if I'll decide I want to wear skirts for the rest of my life, I will!
But no way that I'll be forced to do things I don't believe in!
It was enough when I was infected by the annoying stress of my parents, suspicions, and pretty much everything, and now I'm fucked up (and people wonder why I don't have a close relationship with my mother like many people have), and they try to force me to be someone I'm not, it's like what parents did to their mentall ill children (being homosexual, atheist, and different bizzare not related things was considered as a mental illness), sent their children to a priest, and the ones who wasn't cured, was punished, most of time death, sometimes dying in fire, sometimes being hanged, it depends, it's up to the hanger/lighter.


I just want to escape, I believe in nothing in here, the mind ways, and they pretty much programming me to be like them, and paying 3000 nis to a therpaist so I won't be in suffering when they force me to do what I hate.

That's why I want to run away with the circus, because there are no stupid forcing, nothing stupid, just live, travel, learn, create, just live as we believe we should.
That's what I call freedom.

Not suffering going to see an "educating" plays, like people praying, or having faith in an unproven entity, or about wars and people who survived, and having faith in yourself, because it's ridiculously stupid.


I'm really digging the religious related things, my favorite is the arguments between atheists to religous people, the comment of the one who says that atheists are a shame to seciene, because we are only teenagers that say they are without religion to be rebelious.
Ha!
We are barely children, so how can be teenagers?
And the term of "brainwash", I haven't heard it since...
KID PADDLE!
Oh god, I loved this show, each day when I woke up early, it was or Spiderman, and then it was Oggy and the Cockaroaches (best cat and roaches show ever), and then it was Kid Paddle.
I remember, the episode with the slimey green goo that Horace made, and all of the creative imagination of his science teacher brainwashing him.
And all the charcters I remember how they look like, but not the names.
Like that other gamer girl, with the purple hair and the black outfit, Kid brought her some violent flower.
And what's his name, the uncle of the gamer girl, with his dog.
And Carrol, Kid's sister, and his father, and Carrol's best friend.
And Kid's grandpa, with his trumpet.



Oh, I'm just so sick of religion, so yes, some things I won't do, but I just have some respect and want to be in shape.
Like Yom Kipur, I will fast, and since I have no choice now, I won't eat bread on Passover, and I assume I won't have any other choice but hearing each boring long blessing or something.
And I won't eat bacon, two reasons, a. I'm just used to it, b. I like cows much more seriosulsy, pastrama is my kind of bacon, I eat it as it was water.
I don't know about milk and meat, for now, I can't eat in the same dish, thanks to the fact we have one dish for dairy and one for meat, so, it's or the plastic plates, or nothing.
And nothing seems nice, and it's not that I like cheese anyway, I like chocolate, and I like meat, and I have no idea what will happen, I just know that my father's company will be kinder (he's eating bacon, barely fasting on Yom Kipur, and stuff).


How can you even comapre?!
A girl asked who do you like better Justin Bieber, John Lennon, One Direction, or Freddie Mercurie?
What the fuck is wrong with you child?!
You can't compare them.
You can compare things under the same exact category, like The Wanted and One Direction, beacuse pop boy bands that came quite famous (and I think that they are both British, but I barely remember a detail), you can compare, you can compare many many many things, but old and new, you just need someting borrowed and something blue, and that war will be worse than a divorcement.


You have no idea how silly I am when the night is coming, I just walked in sneaky style of cartoons, and then I walked to the other side, and for the ending I kind of moving my head in circular motion quickly (circular head bang?) and just give him some stare, and his giving the same stare, each time I do it!



Oh... Why?!
Do you remember my reaction to strong pain (all of my earings had the same affection of getting my toe almost cut off), and plenty of blood (same toe occasion).
So, a part from my religion over exposure to really understand what I want to be, I watched an awful Jewish rituals (each ritual in Judaism reminds me suffering), is on Yom Kipur, it's not very common, but it's pretty much praying over a book under an upside down chicken being swinged in circals over the head of the "prayer", and then there's the Kosher murdering of the dizzy chicken, and it's to straighten her head, and cut her throat some thin stripe/hole and just to shake here until her blood is dripping out, and they or just letting the blood spread on the concrete sidewalk, or to pour it into buckets (which are in the size of few decent tubs), and here is for you, to turn a vegiterian.

This is the link:
Hello I am your beautiful link for a horrifying ritual!


You know, I really hate that racism in religion, like I'm used to hear stuff about different countries, but come fucking on!
If they don't believe in your god, it doesn't mean they are bad.
You know what's bad?
To prevent joy from yourself, even if your joy is to lick hamstars (I'm in the part of the todllers that want to lick, eat, or shove to their mouthes), lately I want to lick electronical screens.

So, I'm going to get upset and support some religous and anti religous minded people.
To try to finish my attemt of a revoulted zombie boy (one day it will look professional).
And to do the ideal thing of many ladies and keep things for tomorrow, just instead of saying "since tomorrow diet!" I just promise to myself to read the book for the homework.


My precious!


Berries, Survivors,
I hope you'll make it.