Annoying day

What a day...

Fucking annoying day!

A heart attack, some yellings, a psychologist, that's what I passed through today...

My neighbor, got a heart attack, the man, he was nice, I liked him, he never meant to be funny, but his actions are hilarious.

I'm sick of my family, god, they are just, don't get it...
You can never ever mention how much fat in some body part, to a human being, even if s/he don't care, later, s/he will are, and it will end terribly.
I thought that my arms are skinny, I guess they aren't...
I always thought that they were the thinnest part of me, now, I doubt that...

The psychologist, is like a fucking literture teacher, she finds meanings where there are no meanings at all.
I'm sick of drawing my melted mouths and say "nothing" afterwards.
I just want to draw, and then, silence.
And now, I'm being ignored.

WOW!
THAT GIRL CAN SING "THE A TEAM" SO BEAUTIFULY!
I think she should pass, she worth it!
And it's better than those stupid depressing in way too cheery music, stupid lyrics that just says "I wanted to write a song, but I have no idea, so let's make bullshit with my guitar" which is true thanks to that song about London, and it's middle eastern, hebrew, and I just hate it.

So...

Have you felt pain in the form of cosmetic treatment?

Have you ever got waxed on your period?

I'm sorry, but today I did only half leg, and full upper body, and I was a wimp, because the last time it was on my period, it was after New York, I got my whole body waxed, and that is called pain. 

I just wonder...

How long?

When will I be able to just... Log off?

Just step away, and instead of keeping relationships, I'll become a person that have a purpose. 

There's this guy...

He committed suicide, and his name was Lois. 

And, I always said that my answer for how many people for each day, is too much, always too many. 

Nobody should die this way. 

That was the only good thing on the society of Cassia, Ky, Xander, and their world, suicide is like a legend, you never see it, the idea of death under 80 is for irregular situations, and mutations (aka, abbertions, and the outer proviences, because of the enemy and the society), the society seems boring, endless stupid routines, in intention to lead to perfection, and guess what, no death is great. 

Though, I'd love that natrual death ways will happen, not like with the solider that captured the death in the sack, if it will happen, people will be miserable. 

You know, I'm starting to actually know how I'd name an animal by its color and size, I'm very specific.

If its enormous black dog (the kind that 5 year old children can ride on), it will be shadow, because I knew a dog named the same, and I love him. 

If it will be a small, with destroyed and or missing body parts and it's ginger cat, it will be named Ada, because my brother always yelled Ada! When he saw that cat. 

I want a bunny. 

But not like the one I had when I was 3, that was a bunny in a size of a large purse dog, in the size of 2 large purse dogs. 

I saw so many small black bunnies, and brown, they are adorable!

I want an animal. 

Or a friend. 

Fuck loneliness. 

I feel that I have nobody. 

So, my psychologist, is interested in my blog, she don't know it's on English, so it's good!

She asked me why I keep writing if everyday, I say that it's just really important to me. 

It's only half the truth. 

I keep writing to remind everybody that reads, that if I'll stop without any warning, it means I'm dead, that I killed myself, that I finally gave up, but I never stop, because this is showing that you can go through it. 

I really hate the new fashion. 

If I want food fashion tips, I'll go to the amazing guy I saw in New York, that matched his purse (with a dog in it) to his shoes and his jacket (that was tailored flawlessly), and wore skinny jeans, and sunglasses, and his shoes, I was amazed by the heel, it was so high!

I admire his fashion taste!

But seriously, the new grunge, and furs. 

Sometimes I can manage that.

Sometimes I can't. 

I have a design already for an outfit. 

Feel free to design it, sell it, and ship one for me, I'd like to get some winter clothing. 

So, imagine basic flannel shirt, long sleeves, red plaid with blue. 

Make it a hoodie. 

Add a zipper, and the head part is black , like, black fabric from outside, and rich lookin black faux fur from the inside. 

Am I the only one who liked rich looking faux furs?

So since I have nothing much to post, go check vlade's page on meme center, or just wtf fun facts on tumblr. 

Berries, survivors,

I hope you'll make it.