Seventh Day?!

Okay, I regret saying bad things about how lousy our preteens and teens are.
In Chicago, two fourteen year olds fought over a boy online (it's a recipe for disaster), since it's the USA, and you can get lethal weapons easily, she shot her.
What a wonderful world.

The last two days were the worst I had.
Last night, I was so pissed off, I tried to sleep, but they all made those unbearable noises, I started to suffer through ticcs, it was a hell, I just heard those annoying "ahhh" and "ohhh" and I just couldn't control my body.
At some point I got angry that I just swung my arm in front of my face so I could scratch it, I didn't control my body, in the end I figured out what I was about to do and got my arm away from my nails.
And yesterday, I got so upset and emotional (being a female is fun, isn't it?) that I cried, not once, nor twice, but I cried a lot.
I felt like my really fucked up sims with the over-emotional, unstable, neurotic, socially awkward, and all the weird stuffs that will just make them freak out (my Alejandro does that!).
It wasn't fun, and I just calm myself with the idea that I'll never have to do it again (at least not in my school, I love ram's anyway), so yeah, never again!

Well, I just rather to skip about the shitty awful topic, and I'll mention only a few happenings.
Like the fact that today I was about to cry in front of my already crying friend (again, because I cried in front of yesterday as well), because I felt so fat, and I am such a failure, because Yali was there, and I'm just... Ew, and not even close for a thinspo.
Hell, not even for healthy-weight-body-spo.
I just started to imagine myself hurting myself, and images of cuts, and a lot of grayscale (I got problems with saying black and white, because black and white seems like a grayscale on the highest contrast) images.

I really wanted to cut myself for the last two days.

I guess I actually can't deal with people.


OKAY.
I CAN'T DEAL WITH RELIGION AS WELL NOW.
WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!

Okay, another topic, not field-trip shit.
Have you heard about the person who didn't die from his execution punishment? He died from a heart attack after some artery exploded!
He deserved that.
For everybody who says it wasn't humane, go to hell. Please.
This person shot a young woman (even not a woman, she was fucking 19 as far as I know) and buried her alive, now, do you think that what he did was humane?!
I personally believe he deserved that.
Actually he deserved more.
WAY MORE.

Why did I say that?
Now  I can't remember who I argued about after the person said "no way" and  answered "yes way" and the person said a more powerful way for "no way" and I said "SUPER MEGA YES WAY", maybe it was Dabush.

By the way (fuck!) Dabush, Yael told us that from the side we look like a couple.
Well, I wouldn't have mentioned it, but so many people talk about having a date or a partner or a boy/girl-friend, so I must, it's my duty afterwards, to let you know.

So, I can't understand why would I or everybody in my school would want/need a partner.
YOU ARE FUCKING THIRTEEN.
Grow the fuck up and stop playing mommy and daddy, this nooshie-mooshie bullshit is annoying.
People should stop with this need of romance everywhere.
The next time that I want to hear about romance from another person's mouth is when they read about the romance languages on the History book, or in literature from some reason.
People should understand that from romance comes only bad things!
VERY BAD THINGS.
You know how bad, I just said it five minutes ago, it involved a gun, and Chicago girls.
It can go in a very different beautiful ways in the spectrum.
I can bring up a few!
Let's start from music, for now it's not about My Chemical Romance, it's about some really old article I read once, about a female that was in a destructive relationship (maybe a cult) and wrote songs and poems, needless to say, I want to shoot stupid people like her, brain before heart. Always.
We can also go for teenagers (I had this idea of trying to post once trying to shove as many as song titles I can, I did not mean to do this now) like the time when a girl was blackmailed by two guys, and each time she gave them like 10 nis, 50 max.
Or when people throw flaming bottles on their ex's girlfriend after she got pregnant (the news in Israel are fucking lovely! Don't you agree?).
And, let's go hardcore right now.
WHEN PEOPLE DIE FOR THEIR LOVE.
I think it's stupid when you're a teen, or a very young adult (whispers: somebody over-enjoyed Romeo and Juliet), because, you are still young.
From the other side, after a long, long, long, relationship, I think it's not so weird.
Imagine, the love of your life just died, you knew him/her/it (genderless?) for over...

I TRIED TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING ONLINE, AND THEN I FREAKED OUT.
I JUST WONDERED HOW I SAY THE PERIOD OF FIFTY YEARS, WHICH IS JUBILEE, AND I FOUND IT WAS BIBLICAL AND THEN I JUST READ A BIT IN GOOGLE AND I JUST SAW SABBATICAL, AND I WONDERED WHAT DOES SABBATH MEANS LIKE IN BLACK SABBATH AND I GOOGLED "SABBATH DICTIONARY" AND I JUST FOUND OUT.

IT'S THE FUCKNG SEVENTH DAY OF THE JEWISH/ISRAELI WEEK.
What the actual fuck?!

But can't we just settle on one word?
We (in Israel) usually write shabbat, because this is how we pronounce it.
Actually, it sounds more like  Arabic to me.
(alyum) Sabbaeh, which is the seventh (day), sounds more like sabbath to me.

Fuck, now I'm learning Arabic, because of the stupid interest in how to say correctly.
I still have no idea what some letter meant, it's binti letter, but instead of two/one top/bottom dots, it got three, and it's not the th one! the three dots that I saw were at the bottom!
That was weird.
Well, I'm going to bed.
Tomorrow it's Thursday, I'll weigh myself.
I'll probably be sad because of the number that crept up (probably 49-51).

I'll probably fast this Sunday.
But Saturday will include having fun with my big friend, laptop, the ones who warms my lap all the time!
He's like a little less fun and smart and robotic version of Yay-Okay!
Saturday...
I don't know if I should hiss or not, because it's the fucking seventh day.


I hate language, and I demand the Hebrew Academy to build a word for "Ritual" and stop making one thousand ways to say one damn thing that nobody cares about.

I guess that calling  food in disgusting words is more their thing than building words so songwriters will be able to write Hebrew songs, and to publish them, because it's illegal or something to make a wrong sentence in a song.
Pfft, like the Arses care, they will be shitty anyway.

They are actually an insult for every stupid person in the world.

They are a contagious disease, we should lock them in an island, or just put them somewhere and supervise them, watch their cavemen behavior and let their technology grow.
Maybe it's the only cure.


By the way, I saw Taglit people today!
They are pretty much the people you should laugh at all the time.

Good night.

Let's hope I'll have a good BM tomorrow to start the day good.
And to see I magically lost weight, or just see everybody else fatter.

Funny, I know it won't happen!
I'll just have fun seeing myself fat then not so fat and then obese in my eyes.