Donnie Darko

I’m watching the Prozac trio; they are one of the most known comedy groups.
It kinds of relaxes me from the stress I’ve faced earlier.
I really hate when people mention out loud that I’m vegan.
I mean, people, get off from my plate, I really hate when people are nosy about food.
Like I can tell you, but do not overreact, or take or give anything to me.
I’m serious, get off from my personal shit.
I need privacy, a lot of it. I lived with my sister in the same tiny room for so many years; I didn’t have any privacy, currently, I demand having privacy, for my own sanity.

I feel hormonal as fuck.

I’m wasting my life; I mean, here’s another minute that won’t come back.

Yesterday, before Helena (and before the other bitchiness session from my mother) I saw a girl who wore all black. She wore a black sleeveless shirt and black leggings.
I commented out loud “Why is she wearing all black?” I found it amusing; after all, I dress up almost the same.

I’m on YouTube, and I watch Jarrod Alonge’s videos, earlier this day, I watched his misheard lyrics, it was so funny.
I’m watching “How To Pronounce Band Names”, funny, not as the previous ones, but funny.

I’m watching “How to Scream/Growl for Beginners” for me it’s “How to Scare the Shit out of Your Siblings” okay, I just saw that I’m physically unable to do anything like that, you know what? I’m going to scare them the old way…
Oh and it’s also scaring your parents.
Seriously, I don’t know about you but I’ve seen a couple of movies and documentaries about exorcism; I’ve told you that the insane-hardcore Jews are doing things beyond imaginary; it includes spanking and demon exorcising.I want to watch some of these films.

Here’s something you don’t expect to see in The Sims 3.

That’s my vampire, a vampire with a super-duper-extra glowing vampire skin.

Guys, I’m starting to think about Gal again.
It drives me crazy.
I don’t know what to do.
My plan was to go to her house (which I’m pretty sure that she still lives there) and if she’s not going to open, then I’d ask “Is Gal home?” and that’s where my plan ends.
I’m nervous, scared, and something else… Excited?
I have so many scenarios in my head.
Will she be home? Assuming she is, what if she’ll open the door, what would she say? What would her eyes tell? What if she won’t? Who’ll I encounter? Will it be her mother? How would she react if so? What if it’d be the housekeeper? What if it’d be her father? Her father knows my father, I wonder if he knows that my father told me everything… What if it’d be her sister? Does she remember me?

I’m afraid of hurting her even more now.
What if I’d so something that will hurt her?
I wonder if she thinks about me sometimes, I have diverse feelings about it, I wish that she would, so I won’t feel so alone, that she misses me too, but I really wish that she doesn’t, what if it hurts too much? It’s probably not one of her most pleasant memories.

Thinking more about it, here’s something weird.
Their friendship began after Daniel “commanded” Yali to pour a bucket of water on Gal; she refused, as she thought it was too vicious.
Six years later, she opened a Facebook page, in order to harm another girl, and dragged her very best friend with her.
Seven years later, she turned her back on her.
Eight years later, the girl that she didn’t want to commit a vicious action on her, destroyed her, in the worst kind of way.
Isn’t it strange? I mean, you decline one action for being too much of a something, only to do something worse only after a while.

You know what they say…
God works in mysterious ways.
I wish that this “god” would be suffering.

It’s insane that one girl who hasn’t done anything wrong would be treated so poorly; by her “best friend”, by another “good” friend, by a whole community of children.

I feel like I shouldn’t visit here so I won’t hurt her, but I miss her so much.

I was googling “Sims 3 fallen angel” I saw a video, and I assumed it’d be classic story with a tragic ending.
It was the song, and it’s not the first time that I fall for this trap.
I actually fall for many traps.
I don’t know if you remember it, but in one page, there was a post that was posted multiple times and it was the lyrics of Welcome to the Black Parade, which I thought that they started saying something very excitedly (it was capitalized) and I don’t know what, but I always thought that they had something to say that wasn’t it.
I’m going now for Fallen Angel Challenge thing, sadly, nobody understands that fallen angel might be… I don’t know something in the book of Enoch!

I googled something that is more productive than the last search “Sims 3 fallen angel Hush Hush Nora Patch” which had a link to Tumblr; As it appears, “Natch” is a thing.
Nothing that I’d find useful, back to the video!
I’m going to give in and press anything that I haven’t watched and that can be nice.
But not too many music videos, most of the wanted ones I’ve already watched anyway.
It reminds me of the video of Barbie Girl, it was a really good one, the real one is better, but anyway.

I was thinking for myself about how weird it is that I have a half a NIS coin near me but not a single hair clip, because I usually hoard them, and I thought about a lovely love song that I could sing for them (I dedicate songs and quotes for many things!) which was Heart On Fire, and this song was featured in LOL, that I watched with Gal.

I just finished Knives and Pens Sims 2 videos.
Now it’s time for a really good named one: Emo heart-The sims 3 Emo story
I don’t understand.
Oh I have the same Bring Me The Horizon shirt for my Sims!
I’ve downloaded one a band shirt pack, I’m not sure if one of my sims wear one of them, so I’ll just leave it there.

GUYS!
I FOUND THE ASIAN FEMALE MARCHING BAND FOR FUNERALS!
I’m five percent more happy now.

I was going through Sims emo stories (I think that fifty percent of the simmers community are emo, the other half is magical people) and suddenly, a video was suggested, the Youtuber’s name is Igloo Wall.
His accent is delightful; I feel the need to describe his accent in that specific word.
What’s the name of his girlfriend? Oh she’s really cute and funny.
His name is Shane?
His V-neck shirts are extremely deep.
He’s a model, are you fucking kidding me?
There are so many YouTube who are also models.
It stopped being fair four years ago.
His collarbone is pierced.
He is so many, it’s spooky.
Where does he live?
He wants to live in Los Angeles.
Okay he’s also an atheist.
I think that there’s some sort of a recipe to make a good YouTuber.
He makes a really good female voice.
You know who I think about now?!
NICK PIETRA.
He performs in Broadway, a tribute to Aladdin.
Okay his female voice is incredible.

I harvested my first red chili pepper!

Guys, I'm considering to change this blog a little, blogging through word is much more comfortable for me.
It's just more comfortable to write in word, so I'm considering to simply make pdf files or word files and embed them to be in here.
It'll be easier.
I really enjoy writing through word, and trust me that if I could to simply send you emails each time that a post is made with a downloadable word file attached, you know it'd be pretty nice.
I really want to do it guys.

Sadly, you never cared, so, to hell with the plan.

I don't enjoy blogger, so after Hungary, I might start posting the way I want to.

I'm watching a youtuber named Stacey Hite.

Her video named "my story" is... Well.... Depressing.

Oh her parents are divorced, that explains quite a lot.

I mean, being bullied can have different effects, for me it will just build up and usually won't matter until I'm hormonal, and striving to make my body to look like it's dead, and suicidal (or as I call it, thinking too much)

I was watching her "My first vlog/ video please no hate" and I had to watch it, from the simple reason that she wrote "no hate", I just disrespect everybody who says it, it's ridiculous, people can have their damn opinion and they can express it, you got no right to say to others what not to do, and people are actually more likely to say hateful things when you say it.

Then she mentioned that she wears a My Chemical Romance shirt, and I immediately searched for a really good gif that I was sure that I posted before, but I didn't, so here you go.

This reaction is probably the best for it, because in Israel, it's really rare to meet a person with the same music taste, and when you do, you're simply like this.

I actually wave this way to people from distance.

But really, until you find the person, you're suddenly in some heaven, you found a nice person.

I don't know what's Yael's music taste yet.

I need to see it.

I know why...

She doesn't trust me enough....

Ha... She doesn't trust me all, does she?

She never did.

Was it always this way?

Did she always thought of me as the girl that won't matter if I'd disappear?

Okay, I'm just being paranoid now, don't I?

Sigh. This is really sad that all I can do is to not trust anybody.

You know, people say that people who doesn't trust others are the people who are untrustable.

The only people that I tell anything to is to you guys, that's all.

Another sigh. I guess that this blog is hurting me in some way, but it helps enough to make it worthy.

You know what's good about internet?

You can find yourself sitting nicely at noon, and then you blink, and then you find yourself sitting in a dark corner doing weird things while your hair looks like a weird combination between a pirate to a person who just came from India and still in their "nirvana" phase because the universe is so fucking lovely.

I'm starting to watch now Donnie Darko.

Can't wait to see the rabbit.

I assume that if I'd ever have a pet rabbit again, there are two names for it, Mishmish if he/she will be awesome and aggressive and like a guard dog, or Frank, named after the rabbit from that movie.

Or Energizer if it'd be hyperactive and pink.

I assume that when I'd grow up I'd like to have a zoo.

I assume that I'd just have a cat or a dog and a rabbit and a budgie parrot.

I knew that the actor was familiar! He was Bubble Boy!

The first appearance of the rabbit!

Okay the scene after it was violent!

That bunny is crooked.

The emotional problems was weird, it was also in the trailer, the continue for that scene is slightly weird.

Okay that movie just gets better and better.

The image of the "bunny" will probably haunt me in my dreams.

Gladly I never sleepwalked before, so I assume that I won't do so tonight, and I assume that I wouldn't write numbers.

So I'm okay.

This movie is incredible.

Wow, the jelly-effect scene is wonderful!

I'm really trying to tell you how wonderful this movie is without spoiling it to you.

When you are going to get in trouble against someone who got power, change your name.

I just loved the scene in it.

SLIGHT SPOILER: Gerald is not a good name to change to if it's not common in your school, just saying. Messing up with the so-called Anti-christ is not a good idea either.

Okay, since it won't ruin the movie, each time that they are in the couch in the field scene, it reminds me of Buzz, the Israeli movie, in Buzz they killed a couple of creatures.

Spoiler: the movie scene is beyond everything I could imagine.

I wonder who voices Frank.

Okay, read it.

Okay, the poem from the trailer starts to scare the shit out of me.

Everything there is amazing.

Can we just call it as one of the better movies that were filmed?

I just love psychological horror movies.

Wow, I can't even describe how amazing it is.

I can hear teenagers from the outside, yelling, and well, being teenagers.

But who cares when you can know what's Frank's master plan!

After watching Frank's master plan, I went to look at the dumbfucks that gather around McDonald's, the girls seemed twelve, but the guys, well twelve to fourteen.

The age doesn't matter, as they are all equally dumb and annoying.

That was intense.

I absolutely love it.

It's in the league of Mr. Nobody when it comes to screwing up with your mind, but it's brilliant.

I watched the explanation video, and now I'm watching the ending in the Director's Cut, which is actually helpful for the understanding.

Wow, this movie is amazing!

I wonder if people will make a remake for this movie in thirty years or so from now.

I'm now watching Frank the Rabbit pranks.

Starting with this one.

I personally think that it would be so much better if it happened a while after the movie was released.

People would go crazy.

I had a suggested video, which included Patty Walters, and it was from a Youtuber named Luke (LukeIsNotSexy) and it's amazing.

Okay, I'm watching How To Dress scene/emo, and in the suspenders part, he said "Gir", the robot of Zim from Invader Zim, which reminded me that I used to watch it when I was ten or so.

It reminded me the other show, Ren and Stimpy.

Ren and Stimpy were one of the most violent, sexual, tv shows that I've ever seen; The other one is Game of Thrones.

I just finished it and I saw another video named "How to be emo in 9 steps" and I had one of my more brilliant ideas!

Make a video, where you walk and after that amount of steps become it.

Use stopmotion or just cut the scene and film everything multiple times, but it'd be so cool!

I hope that you can imagine it.

I felt like hearing I'm weird.

Guess what I'm doing now?

Hearing I'm weird.

I'm hearing Space Dementia of Muse.

I think that it's the first Muse song that I hear; Or at least, the first Muse song that I hear consciously.

I'm really calm right now, I'm feeling very whole right now, but I feel some sort of dread or stress from the future, I'm afraid of going to Hungary.

It's midnight and all of my insecurities show themselves.

I'm just afraid of the known unknown, if it makes sense.

I'm afraid of the future that will happen.

I cannot be afraid of the things that I'm truly unaware of.

But soon, I'm going to another country, and stay with strangers.

I'm afraid, and stressed, and I don't want to do anything.

I want to escape.

I truly want to escape.

I want to escape and leave everything behind.

I assume that next year, I'd join the Cabaria, and will decide if I'm going to join the expedition.

After this week I'd tell you what I've decided.

I really hope that I'd be alright.

I know that I work the best under stress, and that I'd be there just fine, but it doesn't really help me with calming down.

I assume that next year I won't join it.

I'd just stay home, safe and sound, quiet, hopefully alive and well.

I feel like I need to do something, but I have no idea what, well, there isn't a single rabbit that would tell me what to do, am I right?

I taste blood in my mouth.

Coppery, salty, and sweet flavour.

You know what I'm thinking about? (except from the fact that in the past week I had ink covering my fingers every night.)

About Yaheli.

She's supposed to come back to Ram next year, and you're going to hear a lot about it.

I thought that for a moment I was hearing things that weren't there, but it really was Romance at the beginning of this video.

I'm trying to understand them, do not expect me to do that fifth-sixth grade bullshit.

He hummed Barbie Girl, I love Barbie Girl.

Barbie Girl was one of the songs that I've heard in the same area of time that I heard One Eyed Doll, Evanescence, Plain White T's, and well, when I met Chrillsims3 and TheCurtisPardisShow, I always liked Chrillsims3 better, because Curtis just never shut his mouth, which got on my nerves after a while.

 

Grrrr, MY FINGERS ARE PURPLE RED AND BLACK.

It sucks.

I got a new pair of shoes today, my aunt brought them, my father asked me if I want them, I liked them, they were close enough to my size to fit (they were size 39) and they are pretty cool.

It's white.

Okay, all of these sarcastic videos are lovely.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ghXfczoZqw

A question, at the moment when she's expressing her ideas about her mother, do I sound like this all the time?

I have this weird thing in the couple of last days to play my guitar.... At one am.

I'm not even joking, it happened once.

My neck needs a massage.

I just finished another piece from a page that I've been doing in the last hour or so.

 It started with the classic "Love sucks".
My favorites are so far the skull with the two hearts in the eyes with the balloon that says "'Til death do us apart" (I've changed it to "part" now, adding crosses) and the note that says "Love kills" and a human heart near the skull; The heart tattoo, with the name Lindsey crossed out, and beneath it Rachel is crossed out as well, and below the heart there's an arrow and near it Maria crossed out as well and Gemma is the only name left.
And the "Happy Valentine's Day" writing, and the bleeding heart from the arrow above it.
I just enjoyed it.
Maybe a little more than I should have.
I need to rewrite the title I gave for this page.
"Bittersweet bonbons for valentine"
Which is pretty cute in my opinion.

I have gathered an opinion.
People who own sims 2 and still make short sims films with it are hipsters, and usually 2008 emo hipsters.
It's weird and magical.
Like a giant rabbit that's a real life glitch.
I think that in every sims 2 emo story video they have the exact same hair for males, it's ridiculous!
Even for me it's enough, and I wore my hair in a bun for over six months! I would have probably wear it until the end of the year if I didn't cut my hair.
Hair is really stupid unless you can create something from it.
 Most things are really stupid to be honest.