Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Madness must be stopped.

I love it.
The Atheistic nice guy with the rabbi, I forgot to watch the last three minutes, he mentioned schizophrenia, and at some point when the rabbi that he’s going straight to hell (he said it a lot of times, and hell is a Christian invention, I have no idea how people can be Jewish and believe in hell) and the atheist said to him “Okay, I know, see you there?”, and that was amazing.
There was a metalhead (or at least, used to be one) that got closer to religion, and they cut his hair in that place.
Oh I didn’t remember this; he said that he brought scissors for the curly nice atheist guy.
Makes sense, considering the previous one.
The atheists who come hundred percent serious in order to teach and educate annoy me, in the same manner they can talk to a wall and get angry that it won’t respond; they are being ridiculous.
People should start with understanding that some people are so close minded and it’s ridiculous, whether they are religious or not, I truly think that it’s possible that people would be close minded atheists.

Okay, that rabbi is unbelievably stupid, I really hope that his joking.
I’m not sure if it’s stand up or serious.

I wonder how people can remain straight faced and actually believe it, this is what people tend to call “madness”; People sit down and believe in that pure bullshit.

Oh fuck, in Ebay, they don’t sell the plaid Scottish skirts that my friend and I want to get.
It’s Shani, I told you that she’s well beyond awesome.
While I bought my Kalimba, I was supposed to get what she bought too, but from some reason I forgot, and what she bought is, well, a slingshot.
I’m going to invite her for my brother’s Bar Mitzvah and we’d shoot hard toffees on him with it.
People don’t understand that there are so many good things to buy, but they buy stupid decorative objects.
What do you need more, a slingshot or a box with a cool pattern? Definitely the slingshot.
Oh, by the way, when we were on the security check on the way to the plane in Hungary, they stopped us, I was sure that it’s because of the gun keychain, and when they said that it’s the bottle I laughed so much.

I need to watch videos of that funny guy, I forgot the name, I’m going to write it when I’m done with the Hocus Pocus’ song speedpaint.
The machinist’s art is insanely amazing.
Wait, I’m watching now videos of Mark Crilley, later I’d probably get inspired for sim building, Chrillsims got good ones, so I’m going to look for his rather small cabins, instead of the amazing mansions, maybe I’d go and watch some of the good sims films (I found one channel that actually puts effort to it, sadly, have the videos are spoken in German, but they are kind enough to put English subtitles in each video, so it’s good), and probably get to the weird side of YouTube again.

I have no idea who is this guy, but I wrote “sims machinima” on YouTube, I ended up in the video of E.T. –Sims 3 Machinima.
One of the comments is the better ones I’ve ever seen.
Okay, but the guy is great when it comes to using the camera and using poses, how the fuck did he get that poses, actually, how they all get these poses? I love them!
I need to understand how people do these amazing poses; all I can get are the poses that already exist.

Never mind, found something.
I’m watching now Sims 3 series Machinima – Donnie Darko (Opening).
Oh the lama is the rabbit?!
The reason behind the fact that I wanted to see Donnie Darko is because I noticed a bunny costume AND a skeleton costume, which is so awesome, because on the Halloween moment, Frank was dressed up as the rabbit and Donnie was dressed in a skeleton costume.
I’m watching the music video of Mad World of Gary Jules; Everybody knows this song, if you don’t, then I’m amazed.

My body is boiling, but the air conditioning remote is so far away (barely a meter away) and I’d probably go to grab it after I’m going to visit the lovely toilet.
Okay, I did it, and I’m glad that I did it.

I’m listening to Fearless Vampire Killers, and on a video that I haven’t seen before of a song I haven’t heard before, named “Palace In Flames”; There’s a comment, that says “It’s like a copy of My chemical Romance, I see veeery [spelling is hard, isn’t it?] big influence, even they have quite similar look like Three Cheers MCR” which made me think, and then I went straight off to Wikipedia (I use it mostly for films, bands, cultures, and chemicals and their uses, and rarely mental illnesses or physical illnesses) and their said influences weren’t them, but in the ones that the fans suggest, it’s a whole another story, in one magazine it was said “if My Chemical Romance and  Panic At The Disco mated, their offspring might look like Fearless Vampire Killers” and it makes pretty much good sense.
And the comment after it is “I think this band is the alternate universe Panic! At the Disco in which Pretty. Odd. Didn’t happen and they continued on developing a Fever-esque sound. And I love it.”
I’m slightly confused after rereading it.
I just love fans.
You know what I should check? If Wikipedia already have a Creature Feature page, because they are active for six years, have done so many things, and yet, there isn’t any page.
Explain.
Anyway, I forgot what I wanted to do… Sigh.

Maybe I should talk about how annoying my brother is, I think it’s a pretty good topic.
My brother is annoying, he thinks that all we do is to be against him, and you know what the worst is? That when he’s upset or wants to annoy you, he’d play music, my dad was asleep, and my brother came near him and played in his stupid toy piano or whatever it is, and it’s annoying as hell, then, I watched The Legend of Korra, and guess what he did? The same damn noises.
In addition, I can’t even hurt him properly, all I can do is lightly slap him, all the things that I want to do to him is too brutal and I have no need in getting punishments or being classified as some psycho, nuh-uh, not a chance.
I have this strange need to carve his feet, or use the meat tenderizer hard, and even without kitchen tools; I can’t even drop him hard properly, because I’d break his bones this way…
No way to vent frustration of that kind, or punish and teach…
Funny that my parents said that I would be a good mother because I can say “no”, I can be a good soul breaker; I have no problems with that.
In some places, it called to be a good slave trainer, sadly, I can’t find a way to get it done, but if I’d have the ability to get this as a job, then I would, it will probably take breaking my regrets and mercy and leaving it away, but it’d be worth it.

I was going in google for sims 3 curly hair (I need them so badly) and I found a website named “Garden of Shadows”; I hope it’s what I need, so far I found a couple that really attracted my attention, I also found a Gerard Way (I find names with many a and w vowels hard to write, hell, it takes a while for me to spell my family name in Hebrew, and even then I’m not sure, in English it’s not any easier, so I’d just rather write everything by myself) inspired hair; The ones that attracted my attentions are one named “Runaway Romance” which made me think about the boyfriend stage on the Runaway Teen Challenge! I found a couple of curly hair ones too, it’d be so great for me; I really need one shoulder length curls and a little less than shoulder length, the little less one has to be identical to the hair of one guy that I know.
Oh the coloring! I just have to put links, http://digitalperversion.net/gardenofshadows/index.php?topic=5684.0
this is a gift sent by the gods of Sims.
I went to go and build Sims for my new pose experiment!

I went outside of my room, and enjoyed playing some card game, until I felt really shitty from my sister’s and mother’s words, and I left for my room again, putting my white hat, even though that it’s the middle of the boiling summer of Israel, the air conditioning makes the room cold, and the street is empty, and the neighbour building is greyer than it usually is, it looks like winter.
I feel bad so I’m writing, how pathetic… At least I’m doing regrettable things, like breaking my promise, insulting people, playing my guitar, reading certain things, starting a conversation with people.
You see, it could’ve been worse!
I feel bad for not saying to Yael about where I was going to every Tuesday afternoon, I know it’s silly, but I find it so shameful, I’m not able to say to my friends that I used to cut myself, probably more because that I don’t want them to question the choice of my clothes after my eighteenth birthday.
I really need to plan it well, maybe starting now.
It will be on a Monday, five days from Passover’s beginning; pity; I will have to go to school the following day, or maybe not, considering the fact that the holiday itself and the days off are different, in Passover it’s only one week or so of eating Matzo but it’s around two weeks and a half of vacation, so, there’s a chance of freedom.
Great future I got there, huh.
Anyway, if so, what should I do? Be outside and do it? Which isn’t as safe and good, because of dirt, and other people, and it’s a mess to clean up (if I’m going to get the things that I want, that would be a mess), but on the other side, my room isn’t a safe option either, if I’d live with my parents.
Uh, I guess that I just won’t self-harm for more than my eighteenth birthday; I guess it’s for the better, even though that I miss it, because my current ways don’t have the same effects, I mean, I don’t have the guts to break a bone by myself, and even if I had, I’d rather to break my bone for the first time by accident; Sadly, I don’t get injured that easily.

I’m still not on the mood.

I ate and showered, I’m in the mood.
                                                                                                                                       
Oh, this is beyond amazing, “lesbian make-out music.” Is probably one of the better quotes ever! AT WAR WITH THE THIRST (2013) – Official Trailer [HD].
I know we talked about it before, it will make sense if a mix between the bands they have also mentioned in that video, but, it’s something totally else, it can make sense, but…
How the fuck does it make sense?! I was on pure “Mix – Fearless Vampire Killers –Pleasure of the Pain – Lyrics” and now from Fearless Vampire Killers videos, I’m in the video of “
My Chemical Romance ‘Greatest Hits’ Trailer (Featuring the song 'Fake Your Death')”  what  the actual fuck?! And now it’s LostAlone, it’s the first time for me so I’m going to give it a chance,  but from now it’s just a cruel mix, Falling In Reverse is after it, and the FVK and then MCR and then FVK again (mindfuck much?) and then Ashestoangels two times in a row, and then, the song that I just can’t handle hearing anymore “King For A Day” which appeared so many times in non-functioning and racist playlists! Then it’s FVK again, and then The Dead Lay Waiting and then Snow White’s Poison Bite (which I’ve heard a couple of times already) and then Black Veil Brides’ COFFIN, which was to be honest one of the least liked songs of them, then it’s Frank Iero (I’m getting so confused by the choices of YouTube now…) and then it’s LostAalone, and then The Dead Lay Waiting Again, and then Gerard Way, and then MCR (that would actually make sense if they didn’t put LostAlone in the middle) twice in a row, then Astro Zombies, and FIR  and then MCR, and all of the sudden, Fall Out Boy comes, then MCR, and then it’s getting to the faded ones with Alex Day and A Day To Remember.
On that OlgaKay said something, “WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU?!” which extremely fits it.
I skipped Falling In Reverse, and after A Day To Remember there’s Sleeping With Sirens (have I mentioned already that Pierce The Veil and Sleeping With Sirens appeared a lot in the nonworking playlists), and then there’s Patty’s This Is Halloween scream cover?! Okay, that’s it, I’m so fucking done.
Then there’s FVK again.
I wonder what the fuck happened.
I try to understand, I truly want to, but it’s just… IMPOSSIBLE.
I’m pissed off.

What the hell with the comments.
Sometimes I forget that the comment section on Youtube can be that good, like with The and Loy, it was epic.
Okay, it was some comments about that some fans started liking them only two weeks before the break up and they’re like whine about it because they’d never see them performing live, and I’m like facepalming because I live in fucking Israel, some concerts are cancelled due the fact that such a massive gathering can attract the Hamas to attack, the kids from the central’s summer break is wasted, and guess what? There’s a reason why the central is so damn expensive, it’s considered to be safe, and since it’s safe, it attracts many things and people want to be there.
It’s not fair, with how things are going, I might find myself blogging with a gas mask on, complaining about the stupid girls who decorate their gas masks, and the chances for it to happen are high enough to make me feel concerned.

OH FUCK THERE’S AN ANIMATED EDITION FOR PALACE IN FLAMES!
More people should do that, and I know a couple of animated music videos.

I’m listening to The Dead Lay Waiting – Burnt to Ashes while slowly eating chocolate with extra judgemental look on my face.

My left hand is numb, after trying to do something really stupid with a hanger, enough blood flew so I feel it slightly more, but now it hurts to move my hair with that hand, because I can’t feel it, so I have to use my right hand, which from some reason, I find doing it very uncomfortable, which is weird.

You know, just today I told my family thanks to the Hamas  there aren’t any teenagers around McDonalds.
Now there are a bunch of girls that screech outside, probably just below my building because I can’t see them near McDonalds; I really hate them, can’t they just be quiet only for once?!

I’m sitting now, on the edge of my fucking window, hearing the dumb teens that stay are there, it’s so obvious that they have electric bikes and scooters, it seriously screams preppy assholes.
It’s really uncomfortable and I need something to sit on, but I’d rather not feel my but for thirty minutes rather than missing this wonderful conversation.
They got the typical clothing and hairstyles.
Sadly, I’m out of damn water balloons.
It’s now ten pm, and that is the things that guys my age do.
They aren’t even teenagers yet! The madness in the streets belongs to the juvenile!
It’s not fair! Now I know that we are completely doomed.
You know what I really wish for? The alarms, I really want an alarm, better yet, Code Red; I want code red to appear, and them to be traumatized forever, I hate these stupid fuckers.
OH! They just walk in and out the entrance to our buildings!
I want them to die.


I moved away from the window, water was dripping on me and it was irritating.

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