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I still feel down-ish.
Not really surprising.
I know it's all because of puberty, but it's still not very nice.
I still don't want to go to school tomorrow, or ever again.. It just makes me sad.

Anyway, I'm just going to waste the rest of this day in simsing [I got new mods, and now I'm trying to figure out things.]
It's not that bad, because I got Blessing and Disasters, and NRASS and Demonic Powers, and the statue of life, and I also got two vampires and each are immortal [mod] and all I need to geta re sunscreens, or just have the immortal lifetime reward so they won't burn.
Because, admit it, it's used only for killing the vampires you hate.

I feel bored and I'm going to sim, it's a bitch to build and buy when the game crashes at rendering problems, the worst ones are with the roof.



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Quite a time passed since the last time I used the dots for post breaks...
Anyway, I just feel bad again.
I hope that tomorrow I'd have enough courage to ask if I can stay home.
It makes me want to die when I go there, so yes, I do have a small amount of time [around twenty minutes] where I basically don't feel anything whatsoever, because of the endorphins that I get after riding my bike. [I always put it on the hardest setting, it's better at burning calories and building muscle.]
But other than that, I can't remember anything else, I don't know why.
I fear playing many games, because I might hurt the playmates.
I hate everything else, because I feel like nothing actually matters, even though that it will matter to some extent at the future, but I don't trust teachers to teach well, so I barely bother with listening sometimes!
I have serious issues with history after last year's history.
Do you know how hard it is to try to understand the  Christian hierarchy? We won't have any reason to learn it, so we only had five minutes about it [probably less] and no further explanation.
It's a fucking bitch to understand what are exactly Bishops, Cardinals [so far, it's the most confusing, thanks to The Three Musketeers.] Pope [I understand that he's the highest in it, but why does he exist?] or anything else that they [you?] have to offer.


That image is pretty much gibberish to me, it has no meaning.
I assume that the Diocesan Bishops are.. Priests? No, probably not.
Wait, are they?
This is a lot harder.
In Judaism all we got are Rabbis for each division [Yemenite, Spanish, Ashkenaz, Ethiopian, ...] and that's all, no headaches.
And we maximum got rabbies of different authorities, and we got the religious companies that work with the law, like Kadisha [because burial has to be expensive as fuck!] and the Rabanut [because we just have to marry to a Jewish person with weird fees and humiliating actions!] but it's really simple.
It goes straight forward from priest [Rabbi] to pope [Rabbi of the country], and even then, only sometimes.


I feel like cutting, and crying, and eating, and drawing.
Gladly, I can't.
Cutting, I'm not returning to it soon [or as I think.]
Crying is humiliating, so that would be pretty stupid to do so.
Eating, well, as much as it's a typical me behaviour, I'm not in the proper mood.
Drawing, I already do so, but I really want to return to digital things, I just need a tablet again.


It's getting late, so I'm going to climb up to bed and try to fall asleep, and hopefully, tomorrow I'd be resting, away from stress.
I assume I'd go anyway at the afternoon for the event of the eleven who were murdered in Munich.


Good night.