Unsurprisingly, they have done it.
Cancelled.
Oh well, it's not that I'm even disappointed.
I anyway needed just a couple of sketchbooks. [I really want to make something that for sure will take over an A5 page, so I need an A4 page.]
I don't want to feel disappointment, or make everyone feel like they are one.
It's probably one of the only things that crush me.
I got my test yesterday, I got 73, it was a bit painful, but I knew before that I was wrong about the things, there was a question that I accidently divided it in two from the beginning, another one was really long and I probably forgot in that mess to put something [in the end it was that I forgot to mention that the triangle's angles together are 180 degrees], and I have this really awful issue with pluses and minuses.
I'm pretty good at math, because I'm a fast learner [I'm pretty fast at reading too, or my thoughts are too quick to match up, and then some words get corrupted, because I don't have enough time to think and speak, maybe that's why I sound fake a lot of times, because I'm too scared that I'd mess up in front of people that I feel like I need to impress, so I preplan it] but I still mess up these two.
I discovered that Pitaya is really good as a natural laxative.
Really good.
It was painful and took plenty of my time, but at least I'm rather empty now.
I feel a bit bored.
It's probably because I pretty much planned this day to be something else, I'm going to sim as always and just hope for it to work.
I opened Ebay, and typed "Stomachaches" [an album] and I was more than shocked to see the price.
Dollar.
AND IT GOT THREE DAYS LEFT.
I don't think it's even legal to make a person feel this way.
Oh, there was a catch, the shipping is thirty dollars.
My dad suggested that I'd go to a store in Tel Aviv.
The place is quite old, my dad used to go there.
I won't be surprised if all of these CDs I got from him was bought there.
....
I noticed it too a couple of days earlier, but it saddens me a bit anyway.
My grandmother noted that I gained weight, which is true.
My face gained a bit, my grandmother says it looks better, but to be honest, I almost want to cry.
I remember that a couple of weeks ago, I noticed that my cheekbones started having a bit of an outline at the sides, but it's gone.
Okay, I just want to the refrigerator, to get some juice, because I'm getting nauseous from this anti-allergy medication.
And as I came to sip, my brother said "Eating all day long..." a couple of times.
I just put everything back in place, because, fuck the stomachache, I can live with it.
But it's so fucking awful to hear this sentence again...
I used to get this sentence on daily basis at my worst time into my binge eating and my emotional eating.
I feel like the last couple of years, fighting it, trying harder to fall into anorexia, everything... But it was all for nothing.
It was a sentence I used to get from my mother...
It just makes me want to cut and cry my heart out.
And that stomachache spreads now... Fuck.
My chest area....
I really miss Arius.
It's starting to fade now... That's better.
The words still hurt.
My left wrist is aching, which is quite weird, it's supposed to be the right one, yesterday I banged it on one of the posts that held the pole.
It came back.
My jaw hurts.
And my left elbow, but that's because the side bone is lying on a hard material.
I know I should eat to make it go away, but I just feel so weak.
It hurts like hell to feel this way.
My head hurts, it's because of the medication, I'm going to bed, I need some powers for tomorrow, I have to fight against going to this hell where mean children are there just to hurt you.
Cancelled.
Oh well, it's not that I'm even disappointed.
I anyway needed just a couple of sketchbooks. [I really want to make something that for sure will take over an A5 page, so I need an A4 page.]
I don't want to feel disappointment, or make everyone feel like they are one.
It's probably one of the only things that crush me.
I got my test yesterday, I got 73, it was a bit painful, but I knew before that I was wrong about the things, there was a question that I accidently divided it in two from the beginning, another one was really long and I probably forgot in that mess to put something [in the end it was that I forgot to mention that the triangle's angles together are 180 degrees], and I have this really awful issue with pluses and minuses.
I'm pretty good at math, because I'm a fast learner [I'm pretty fast at reading too, or my thoughts are too quick to match up, and then some words get corrupted, because I don't have enough time to think and speak, maybe that's why I sound fake a lot of times, because I'm too scared that I'd mess up in front of people that I feel like I need to impress, so I preplan it] but I still mess up these two.
I discovered that Pitaya is really good as a natural laxative.
Really good.
It was painful and took plenty of my time, but at least I'm rather empty now.
I feel a bit bored.
It's probably because I pretty much planned this day to be something else, I'm going to sim as always and just hope for it to work.
I opened Ebay, and typed "Stomachaches" [an album] and I was more than shocked to see the price.
Dollar.
AND IT GOT THREE DAYS LEFT.
I don't think it's even legal to make a person feel this way.
Oh, there was a catch, the shipping is thirty dollars.
My dad suggested that I'd go to a store in Tel Aviv.
The place is quite old, my dad used to go there.
I won't be surprised if all of these CDs I got from him was bought there.
....
I noticed it too a couple of days earlier, but it saddens me a bit anyway.
My grandmother noted that I gained weight, which is true.
My face gained a bit, my grandmother says it looks better, but to be honest, I almost want to cry.
I remember that a couple of weeks ago, I noticed that my cheekbones started having a bit of an outline at the sides, but it's gone.
Okay, I just want to the refrigerator, to get some juice, because I'm getting nauseous from this anti-allergy medication.
And as I came to sip, my brother said "Eating all day long..." a couple of times.
I just put everything back in place, because, fuck the stomachache, I can live with it.
But it's so fucking awful to hear this sentence again...
I used to get this sentence on daily basis at my worst time into my binge eating and my emotional eating.
I feel like the last couple of years, fighting it, trying harder to fall into anorexia, everything... But it was all for nothing.
It was a sentence I used to get from my mother...
It just makes me want to cut and cry my heart out.
And that stomachache spreads now... Fuck.
My chest area....
I really miss Arius.
It's starting to fade now... That's better.
The words still hurt.
My left wrist is aching, which is quite weird, it's supposed to be the right one, yesterday I banged it on one of the posts that held the pole.
It came back.
My jaw hurts.
And my left elbow, but that's because the side bone is lying on a hard material.
I know I should eat to make it go away, but I just feel so weak.
It hurts like hell to feel this way.
My head hurts, it's because of the medication, I'm going to bed, I need some powers for tomorrow, I have to fight against going to this hell where mean children are there just to hurt you.
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