I'm such a stupid girl.

I don't belong to ram. 

We all know it. 

Such an arrogant, ignorant, selfish and absoultely awful from the very base creature, doesn't belong to anywhere. 

I was always part of the statistics, the ones I fought so hard against. 

Even then, I secretly knew that I belong there, these numbers will include me eventually. 

And finally, it's time. 

I would like to suffocate myself today. 

I'd probably ask my mum for a phenergan. 

And today may be my final meeting with Lee. 

I told Lee the truth. 

I'm doomed.

Or hospitalisation, or home-hospitalisation
Both are hell and I'm on the way for death.